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Why do people think it is so funny to start s*** with someone, and after a while, the same person who starts all of it pins it on the one they started it with? Why do people even start s*** in the first place?
All this s*** happens to me. It's f***ing stupid and I'm getting tired of it. What the hell am I supposed to do? Apologize to something that I didn't even start in the first place? No. I'd seek revenge, but it would make s*** a whole lot worse. So my only option I really have is to stay away from certain places and lay low. I don't think it's fair because of the fact that I am innocent, and it takes away the chances I get to seeing my friends and having a bit of fun. So basically, it ruins everything.
I can't take s*** anymore. I'm tired of all the drama, I'm tired of running, and I'm tired of hiding. What the f*** do I do? If I can't figure s*** out, I'm done. | |
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| For a while now, I kind of had interests for this girl. I mean, I never thought I would want her so bad. But recently, she is someone I can't get out of my mind. This has been going on for about a month, maybe a month and a half. I don't know why, but I can't get her out of my head. I don't know why I like her so much, except of the fact that she is so nice to me and she is really funny and really attractive. In addition, I've been having dreams about her lately, really interesting and weird dreams. So I don't know what to do now. I want to tell her about all of this, but I'm a little afraid of the outcome. What if she doesn't like me back? I'm at the point right now that this could hurt me. Seriously, what do I do? | |
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It was a three day weekend due to MLK day, so that was a good start to it. I always like three day weekends because I don't really like going school. Although nobody really does, but you would understand better if you went to my school.
It first started off with Samie begging me to death to go to the Homecoming dance (it was for basketball). I kept telling her that I wouldn't go because I wasn't interested and wouldn't have much fun. Then she finally got her way and so I went, but she didn't do anything with me the whole time. That dissapointed me, but I actually had fun because I danced with others and I got a lot of lapdances. It got pretty slutty, but I was on a role that night.
The next day started off with Samie upset at me because I was ignoring her, then I starting acting mean to her. I was mad at the fact she begged me to go and she didn't do anything with me, so I had the excuse, but then she starts crying and I end up feeling bad. We worked things out last night so now things are cool. But during the day, I took Chase, my step-brother, to town and went to DQ and got lunch from there, so we ended up going to a park and ate our lunches in there. We sat in the car and had the sunroof open, listening to tunes. The weather was nice. Blue sky, 60 degrees fahrenheit, a light breeze, it was nice. And driving home was fun, I haven't drove with the sunroof open in a while.
Today, I went to Aberdeen to hang out with my good friend Heaven, and again, the weather was nice, except it was a little colder. But oh well, atleast I had fun hanging out with her. But the thing that was awesome is that while I was at the bus stop to go back to her house, (I just left my car at her place and we just took the bus downtown), some of the girls from my school that were at the homecoming dance were stopped at a red light, and once the light turned green, they start screaming my name, you know like they're cheering me on. It was awesome.
Unfortunally, I have to go back to school tomorrow, and I'm not really looking forward to it. But then, I'm excited because next tuesday, I turn 18 and next Friday, I'm suposed to have a party. I'm stoked. | |
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why I have suck a bad luck with women. I either get lead on or I get f***ed over.
Just reciently, I've been talking to this girl Sam for about a month, and it seemed like things were going to go pretty good with us together. About a week ago, we started talking about dating and how this s*** was going to work out. I actually was pretty happy because I found out that someone was interested in me, or atleast I thought I did. New Years Eve came around, this was the day she was wanting to ask me out, and if she wasn't going to, I would. But ofcourse that moment didn't come that night since she was busy with other people...as in other woman. 
After I got home at one in the morning, I do what I normally do before I go to bed and check my stuff, and here's this instant message saying something like "ya, i'm not sure about dating yet." Kinda figured by then.
Since then, we were talking about how her mom doesn't like the fact of her dating me. I don't know why, but some parents see me as a bad influence, which I am really not. Infact, when they really meet me, they think of me as caring and respectful, which I really am. Although she wanted to still flirt around and stuff, I figure that would be fine, just try not to get me attached.
Today was a fun day. A lot of girls were asking me if I was going to ask her out and they say that I should, but remembering that it wasn't a good idea. I never said one word to her and she never came up to me. Then her best friend told me that it's best not to talk to her because she told her it wasn't. They say it's because of her family, but knowing about what went all wrong in my past, it's kind of hard to believe.
I'm just tired of being lead on and f***ed over. I want to find someone who really likes me, and doesn't give a f*** what others say about it. | |
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So there is this new girl that goes to my school, who happens to be a model. What I think is cool about her is that she is different than everyone else at my school. The thing that I was concerned about the most is that she was going to be criticised for the way she looked and dressed and that rumors about her were going to happen. Sure enough, in our small, drama-filled high school, all of it happened within two days after she started. I actually got to meet her once and she didn't seem bad, infact, she seemed really cool.
What I have discovered reciently is that she is into me. Although it makes me happy to know that I interest somebody, I'm not sure if it's a good idea. She's a model, and usually, but not always, models want more. I'm not sure if I'm going to be enough for her. Plus, I'm just finally getting over what my last girlfriend did, but I don't want the same thing to happen.
If she wants to be with me, then I would want to give her that chance to show her what kind of guy I am. But then I'm afraid she might do something to screw me up. | |
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| It all has to do with people who start a bunch of bulls***, and most of those drama starters are hypocrits. I mean, they think what some of the s*** you do is wrong, but they do that s*** as much, if not, more than you. It's f***ing annoying. Also, they tend to start s*** with you and then they blame it all on you. It's a load of pathetic bulls***. I'm telling you, I think there is a whole bunch of drama and hypocrisy going around and it's starting to get on everybody's nerves. I know I had to deal with it for a long time, and now, I'm getting tired of dealing with it. Who all agrees? | |
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| So my ex-girlfriend told me today how sorry she was about what has all happened, and the way she told me it, she was very serious. I can't give you all the details why she was like that, but I'll forgive her for it. But anyway, I still love her and s***. But I'm not sure if I should get back with her. Honestly, I really want to, even though she screwed me over, she still meant a lot to me. But I don't know. Maybe I need some time to think about it. | |
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| I hate getting stressed out all the time. I hate losing friends over it. I know, people tell me that I need to chill and relax, but no, I let it get to me. It's going to kill me. Last night, I got so stressed out, I got all dizy and almost passed out. I seriously thought I was dying. Seriously, I'm trying to relax, but it keeps getting to me. And when I get stressed, I can't control myself. I know, I need help. | |
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| I don't mean to sound emo like a lot of people think I am, I'm just not afraid to show some of my feelings. I just have been feeling depressed and s*** lately. This probably explains why I haven't been out lately. Maybe it's because I haven't seen my girlfriend for a while. Maybe it's because I miss her so much. She means a lot to me. Infact, I still don't really know the whole reason why she wants to be with me. Nobody has ever loved me so much. I'm not even that great of a person, or maybe that's what I think and that could be why I'm not feeling so hot. I don't know. I just wish I wasn't so depressed. I wanna see my boo so bad. | |
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| So one of my ex-girlfriends that lived near my mom's old place in Colorado is still obsessed with me, even though she was the one that broke up with me. Like, there was one point when she would not stop bugging me. She would constantly leave myspace comments in the form of love, even when she had a boyfriend. I checked her myspace page reciently and she has tons of pictures of me. And now, she just commented a picture of me and my current girlfriend and was like, there are times when I wonder what it would be like if we were still together, or something similar. It's scary. It's moments like these where I don't blame her current boyfriend for doing s*** to her, and she needs to realize that I did like her before, but now there is someone else that I love more than anyone. | |
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