The call from my coach saying:
"JORDAN!! You're going to states! Someone dropped. Get your bags packed and head up to this school pronto!"

Second year in a row of first alternate seriously sucks. I'm extremely disappointed in myself. I worked SOO hard this season in hopes of ONE and only ONE thing, going to states. I feel I have failed this mission of mine and it disappoints me.

Next year, I'm going to work even harder (if that's possible because I've already worked as hard as I could this year!!). If I get first alternate again, I may have to rip my hair out.. but I'm bound and DETERMINED not to.

My team mates are at states competing right now. I'm extremely sad that I can't be with them. I can't feel the adrenaline and the nerves before a round starts (I actually like that feeling).

Ok I'm done.