for the first time in ages i have been having a really good few days! I just felt really happy...u no.... having a really good time with my mates and people, and also theres this guy i like a little bit and last night we talked a bit and it was really nice and i had confidence to talk to him!!! Usually i would just not even go there, because i dont do that kindov thing. But we just talked like friends and it was so good. i was happy.

then i had to go and wreck it.
i always do that.Ruin the good things. i can feel myself shrinking into myself again.hiding from every thing.cant think of anything to say so i dont say anything. i stop noticing if people are talking to me, or where i am. man i must sound crazy, saying all this stuff! its probably not as bad as i make out. it just feels like that right now.
but i'll be fine again soon.