To all people that think they know Me, Ronnie and Billy but really don't know s**t! None of you can even begin to realize how it feels for me losing my bestfriends the way I did.

Ronnie and I have been attached at hip since we met. We have litrally been like brothers for over 8 years! We did everything together. No one in this world knows Ronnie the way I do. I've given him everything, literally the shirt off my own back before. I love Ronnie and always will.

Billy and I spend 24/7 together. I've saved his life before and talked him out of doing a lot of dumb things to himself when he wasn't thinking clearly.

You know what I'm glad Ronnie's in custody now. Because I've had a lot of intense conversations with him and Billy about life and the trouble WE were in. And I would literally lose my mind if I got a call saying one of them were killed or overdosed or whatever. Fuck all of you that think I did this to Billy! You don't know anything.

I begged Ronnie not to go to the desert that day, but Ronnie has to be in the middle of everything and blow s**t way out proportion all the time. And the stupid Myspace message that wasn't even to him started everything. It was his choice to freak out over some stupid litte girl talking s**t about our band and then get involved. It was his choice to go there that day. And it was his choice to get high and steal money and f**k up our tours and then skip out on his probation duties. If you're looking for someone to blame, then look at Billy's f**king "idol" Ronnie.

Because no one forced him to do any of that s**t. And who was the one that drove him to rehab? Me!!! Who picked him up from jail??? Me!!! You can blame me only for giving Ronnie money and a place to stay even though he would always f**k me over!!! And I still will love them no matter if people died 'cause of them. Because I know the real Ronnie and Billy. All I did was help them and cover up for them and take the blame for them, so they didn't look like a** holes all the time.

Now Ronnie's charged with 4 years, Kevin, Billy's brother, for 7 years
for homicide and murder.

Alex and Travis are charged with 3 years for kidnapping.

And Billy's in mental hospital.

In the beginning I offered them to go to rehab with me. Both me and Craig tried to get them cleaned up on the track. But I'm done now, and f**k all those who keep blaming me and think that I'm the reason for this. You all have no idea what really happened. If you don't like the truth then go f**k yourself! Because I'm done wasting my time on people who "think" they know the truth!

If that's not LOVE then I don't know what LOVE is! And I never said I was a saint. I helped them, only because they needed me to. I only helped them because didn't want them to end up like this.