on Friday my sister had some friends sleep over for her 16th birthday and i think of my sisters friends as my own friends and i was chillin with them all then when my boyfriend got out of work and came over he was pissed and i dont even know why he was in the house talking with missy one if my sisters friends and i was up in my room and missy came up and told me that he took a knife and he cut himself well after i went downstairs and talked with him and he was cool then later in the night we were all up in my sisters room and he came up and he was drunk and acting like a compete asshole he kept saying i am an asshole everyone hates me and s**t like that then he told me that he wasnt going to drink anymore and well yesterday he went over his friends house and i know he drank and smoked pot there because thats all they do at his friends house and i am really upset with him right now and another thing he never told me he was going over there and that really pisses me off because when i go to my best friends house i always tell him i am going and he gets mad when i go over there because he thinks i drink and s**t when i go over there but i really dont and he also thinks i cheat on him but i am still a virgin and i would never cheat on anyone because i know how it feels to get cheated on because he has done it to me and i still took him back and s**t it really makes he mad and i dont even know if i love him anymore and i want to break up with him but i dont and i dont know when i should do it because friday he was saying s**t like i was going to so i think i should wait a little bit but i dont really know can anyone help me out with this whole f**king thing i am so pissed and upset and i dont know what to do please someone help me thanks so much for taking the time to read this