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vanders
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5496 points | Guess WHAT???
August 25, 2007 @ 12:05:34 pm | | I was promoted to a manager at my store the other day!!! I was so excited!!! yay!!!! it took long enough but i finally made it... 8 comments | Reply |
vanders
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5496 points | blah
July 10, 2007 @ 04:33:24 pm | I hate having days where i don't know how i feel...
for example... today... i was angry and sad and frustrated and confused and comtemplative and i just don't know why i couldn't just pick one and stay with it...
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eab
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346 points | Entry the Eigth - Thoughts from a disillusioned mind
June 12, 2007 @ 12:35:43 pm | Ok it's been a while since i updated my journal so this might be a bit long. so i figured i'd put it into sections to help me sort this out
Exams: well the uni semester is over and i'm now into my exams. i have 5, i've completed four and i'm thinking i should pa** these but the maths one coming up is the one i'm most worried about. University maths just sucks. I'm not a theory person so i don't really get the point of any of this stuff and because of this i hate learning it. Unfortunately if i fail two subjects this semester i'll get kicked out of uni, put simply i've failed too many allready. I'f this doesn't work i'm joining the army (i'm not kidding)or the salvo's (joking)
Cars: My car is really bugging me now, i've spent maybe 4 grand on it and the entire electrical system is still shagged. I'm going to re-wire the whole thing during holidays which will hopefully fix it, I'f it doesn't i'll be pissed and it would just hurt to sell it cause i dont have the money to fix it right now. Did i mention that the battery needs to be charged if i run the lights for more than an hour?
Money: Something i don't care about but yet has so much influence over my life. It's something i wish i could live without most of the time, trading would be better with me as far as I'm concerned. I'm working at a property maintenance place at the moment but not getting enough hours to make it worthwhile. This should change after exams but it takes so much out of me i don't have the energy to do anything once i knock off and since it usually starts at 7am i don't do anything before hand either. On top of this one of my housemates is moving out in june and now i have to cover part of her rent as well.
Girls: this is still a problem for me, if you've read my other journals you'll know this. My ex is still after me to the point of obsessive and I've said I'll hang with her again but made it clear nothings going to happen, she keeps pushing it and it's driving me nuts. On top of this i've had a crush on another girl for ages now but don't think she's into me like that and i'm too gutless to find out otherwise. I'm so used to having a girlfriend that i have no idea on how to actually go about asking someone out anymore anyway (havn't been single for about 7 years (different girls but always wrong for me)i have a strange habit of picking the girls with serious insecurities and erattic emotions. I'd say my last relationship was 30% good and 20%don't care and 50% dealing with irrational abuse. So yeah i'm screwed on all fronts so i think staying single is the right thing for me for a while.
Other: got new strings for my guitar so i can start writting my songs again which has always been a good way for me to cope with things. i'f you want to know more just ask. I think i'll start doing my art stuff again too, i really want to get into some photography but maybe thats just wishful thinking. what i really want to do is take my skates, my board and dissapear from everyone i know and start somewhere else without anything just basically backpack across the globe helping people out with their problems. Somehow i'm alot better at that than solving my own. I want a world where people aren't afraid to stop and help someone, where no-one walks past the beggar in the street abusing him and most of all forgivness. Seems like a pretty hopeless dream sometimes but hey if i stop trying i'll be what i hate.
Anyway thanks for reading, just needed to open up for a bit. Even if no-one reads this i think writting this stuff up it's just good to get it out.
Night all, wish you all the best
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vanders
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5496 points | agony for the goat
May 24, 2007 @ 02:27:04 pm | i really broke up with my boyfriend now... and it f**king hurts...
but i am just hoping that it was the right thing to do, because although i love him... i truly ended this relationship because i am soo totally in love with this other guy... and i have been told he likes me too but i just don't know... and i know that if nothing happens with this other guy that i would have lost my boyfriend forever...More... | 10 comments | Reply |
vanders
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5496 points | mother dearest
May 14, 2007 @ 12:58:13 pm | i moved home... it sucks... i hate all these new rules... and yeah...
i hate not being able to come on tfs when i want... and since mum hates internet sites like these... i can't come on when she is around... and she follows me so that sucks...
love yous though and hope all is well... i will get on when i can...Reply |
eab
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346 points | Entrythe Seventh - How i became EAB
May 01, 2007 @ 12:20:43 pm | Ok EAB stand for Ears Are Bleeding, and for good reason, i'f you reading this you can see my picture and you know what i drive.
The stock (optional extra) stereo in one of these consisted of a push button radio and a 4inch speaker, talk about weak.
I just cant deal with that lack of sound in anything. From about age 9 i was taught piano then guitar then trumpet then french horn and now i play didgeridoo. Music is what i am, it's how i get over bad days and it's what i do on a good one. So any car that i own has to have SOUND! I've played eletric guitar to wake up the neighbours, have the biggest ba** headphones i could find and on top of all this, my pride and joy is my car stereo.
So ive gone from the tape deck, put in an mp3 cd player from kenwood, 4 260watt pioneer 6" speakers (the ones that sit in your car door for those that dont follow this). 2 12" Kicker CVR subwoofers (400w RMS each) runnning on a 750wRMS kicker amp. All this means that my car puts out more than 2640watts of peak power, compared this to your everage home mini hi-fi's 500watts, and the kind of ba** that makes your head go numbin twenty minutes. That is why i am EAB and yes i have way to much time on my hands. :P1 comments | Reply |
vanders
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5496 points | ka ching!!!
April 27, 2007 @ 01:49:49 pm | hey folkies...
just aa tid bit of an update on me... well me and my bf decided that we were better off being friends... i am moving away from him to make sure that i get better (in the head ( been feeling very down lately)) and we decided that maybe it would be better for both of us to be friends...
its weird though... because i have been with him for just over 9 months and that is a long time for me and i don't really remember how to be just friends... i don't know how to not hold his hand when we are walking down the street... i don't know how to not kiss him, or not hug him or not snuggle him...
I know it is for the best in the long term because he has just been getting very hurt by me lately and i didn't want to continue hurtin him... especially when i was doing it and not even knowing it until later when i look back and think... f**k i was a bitch...
but yeah... its weird and its the right thing to do,... but i f**king hate it how the 'right' thing to do is usually the one that hurts you most in the short term...4 comments | Reply |
vanders
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5496 points | SLEEPIES
April 27, 2007 @ 05:15:56 am | everyone is telling me to go sleep...
I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SLEEP!!!
if i do go to sleep then i will be hyper when i am meant to be sleeping and my boyfriend will go crazy at me for keepin him awake...
grr...4 comments | Reply |
eab
General
346 points | Entry the Sixth - My crazy day
April 27, 2007 @ 03:29:22 am | Spent yesterday waiting for uni money to come. I'm fromm the country thus making me a 'disadvantaged' student. They didn't come.
So the whole day i was just bouncing around (litterally) then when i didn't get them in the mail it just got worse. I pretty much just lost my mind for 4 or so hours and jumped around the house and supermarkets and everywhere just been an idiot and singing 'rubber duckie' (it's a good song ok).
Apart from that my ex wanted to meet up with me again today and i just can't handle her anymore. I told her no and said myabe for next week or something. I'm happy about it, maybe now she'll finally get the point that i don't want her back.
Had a thermodynamics lab at uni today as well, was pretty good, just playing with engines and calculating power figures and stuff, the engine we used had a pitiful 15kW  so dodgy. But apart from that i haven't been up to much recently, just watching Naruto, im up to episode 106 and its taking way to long. Definately worth it though.
I'm off to JB HI-FI to drool over subwoofers while my mate has his job interview
Have fun people
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