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Join Date: Jan 2008

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Age:	37
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tequila_sunrise Über-Minister 15529 points	I'm listening to.. Today @ 09:08:42 am 0 Kudos
	KD Langs version of "Hallelujah" It's so sad. It all still seems to unrealistic. Today was good, I laughed and smiled and was happy. But now I think about it again, it hits me all over again. It's so stupid. I'm all upset again. Mum just said that if I'm getting all upset, it would be hard for me to want to make a speech about her at her funeral. Reply

tequila_sunrise Über-Minister 15529 points	I'm a fucking idiot. Today @ 12:22:32 am 0 Kudos
	I need sleep I haven't slept much in the last few days and I think I'm staring to see things! Seriously, I was at work and I was hearing things too.. I'm losing it 9 comments \| Reply

jeanettesianrachel Ogler 27820 points	its official Today @ 12:11:47 am 0 Kudos
	this morning just after 12am mark our son(prince+of darkness)got engaged to laura (random crazyblond)yes there both young and both are determined to finish uni,before moving onto the next step,mick_skins and i are very proud,we know they love each other and want to be together,laura is a beautiful young lady and a great addition to the family x 5 comments \| Reply

the_lone_wolf Minister 12183 points	I'm not drunk... Yesterday @ 08:57:27 pm 0 Kudos
	...I am by nature, a loud, friendly, and clumsy person. 5 comments \| Reply

tequila_sunrise

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Tonight was awful :(

Yesterday @ 09:26:00 am 2 Kudos

We went out to dinner as a family (just my family).... I thought us getting out would cheer us all up.
I did for a while, we were joking around etc.
Mum, Dad and my brother weren't as close to Tanya as I was... But they still really knew her..

I was doing really well, until as we were leaving and I broke down in tears. For the first time since the bad news I lost it. Infront of all these people and I couldn't help it. It all so f**king terrible.

I spoke to Brad before I left, he just cried in my arms, and I cried in his.

The funeral will be so sad.

I really miss her.

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tequila_sunrise

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It's a new day.

Yesterday @ 02:54:11 am 1 Kudos

I'm really seeing the world in a different light today.
Even though I've just had the biggest shock of my life, the world around me seems more lively and for once I feel I have the motivation to start living again after so long of seeing the world in such an obscured view.

I still can't believe she's gone.

But I promise you Tan, I will live for you. From now on, I will take everyday as it comes and live for every moment.

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tequila_sunrise

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Struggling to come to terms with such a loss.

Yesterday @ 12:34:38 am 0 Kudos

I look out my front door and across the road. I seen her car, among others mourning her death. The garage door is open, and somehow I expect her to walk out and get into her car, like she had just a few days ago.

I can't even imagine what her husband is going through. My parents went over to pay their respects this morning and they told me he looked like a mess. I wish there was more I could do.

I barely slept last night. I'm struggling to come to terms with it. It all seems so surreal. Like it was all just a dream. And when I woke this morning, to have my parents confirm that bad feeling that it was real, I seriously just could have died. She was so beautiful both inside and out.

I just don't get why God took her away. She was one of those people that you only come across once in your life because she was truly amazing.

Thinking about now, is making me break down in tears yet again. I haven't even gotten to see Brad this morning, he's over with his dad, struggling to come to terms with such a loss. I just want to give them all a big hug and take their pain away but I know I can't.

It just shows that you can't take life for granted. Everyday is worth living, and I've got to do it for her.

Rest in peace Tanya... I will miss you. Even though I only knew you for about 10 years, you still had a massive impact on my life. You and Michael were second parents to me and I knew you were people that I could always trust.
Take care in heaven, and I'll see you in the next life xoxox

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the_lone_wolf Minister 12183 points	I love how... July 18, 2008 @ 10:01:33 pm 0 Kudos
	...I can be a total dork around you and yet you still make me feel absolutely amazing. 14 comments \| Reply

tequila_sunrise

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Rest in Peace Tanya.

July 18, 2008 @ 02:36:07 pm 0 Kudos

The most beautiful soul I've ever known. Both inside and out.

My best friend Brad lost his step mum today. She lived right across the road from me and I have know her for about 10 years.

Without a doubt, Tanya was the most nicest person I have ever known. Her and her husband Michael were almost like parents to me...and this loss has shocked me to the very core.

I consider her family....

She was so young and had so much to live for... it makes me wonder if there really is a God above... if so, why did they take her away from us?

All my thoughts and prayers are with their family right now.

Yet i'm so f**king shocked.

I've never lost someone close to me.....until now....

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silver_lining Ogler 26436 points	Cooking tea. July 18, 2008 @ 01:39:16 pm 0 Kudos
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