| I'm off for a little while.|
March 15, 2012 @ 07:43:21 am
|Life is a constantly evolving process consisting of one failure after another.|
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| lullaby to my niece|
November 06, 2011 @ 04:02:40 am
|Little baby, go to sleep.|
Or I'll punch you, in the mouth.
I realize that mouth, doesn't rhyme with sleep.
But English was never really my strong suit.
But people have always told me that I have a nice singing voice.
But for some reason I've never been able to sing a child to sleep.
I've always had to resort to other means, such as violence or chemicals.
But as soon as I mention that, they usually zonk right out.
| Things said|
June 09, 2011 @ 10:29:13 am
|out of fear,|
out of envy,
out of anger,
out of insecurity,
while running from the truth.
The farther I run the closer it follows,
until it catches up and consumes me.
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| How do you change?|
January 04, 2011 @ 05:30:31 am
|How do you change traits and quirks that are so ingrained into your personality that just the thought of it feels impossible and overwhelming? Ever since I was a child, all I've ever experienced is dysfunctional relationships and behavior and have always felt the inescapable feeling that the walls are closing in around me and that change is futile. I grew up in a broken home and was surrounded by people who never resolved disputes or problems and just tried to one-up or out-insult each other. I'm sick and tired of my passive-aggressive behavior bulls*** and I don't know how to change it.|
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| Gone from my sight|
December 23, 2010 @ 01:53:38 am
|I am standing upon the seashore.|
A ship at my side spreads her white
sails to the morning breeze and starts
for the blue ocean.
She is an object of beauty and strength.
I stand and watch her until at length
she hangs like a speck of white cloud
just where the sea and sky come
to mingle with each other.
Then, someone at my side says;
"There, she is gone!"
Gone from my sight. That is all.
She is just as large in mast and hull
and spar as she was when she left my side
and she is just as able to bear her
load of living freight to her destined port.
Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
And just at the moment when someone
at my side says, "There, she is gone!"
There are other eyes watching her coming,
and other voices ready to take up the glad
"Here she comes!"
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| What happened?|
October 26, 2010 @ 07:37:46 am
|I feel just plain crappy. I haven't felt this crappy in a long time. Low, sinking, hopeless, helpless, lonely, mad, sad. I'm sitting here wondering how my life ended up like this where nothing works out the way I planned it and I can't count on anybody. In less than a year my life has turned into complete s*** and people around me are either dropping like flies or turning their backs on me like I spit on them or something. I'm not a bad guy, all I've ever done my whole life is help the people close to me and done all I could for friends and family. Why is it that the harder I work at changing my life, the harder it gets?|
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