so i have been getting a bunch of pms about how "i have changed" and it is upsetting them. the only thing that has changed recently is my appearance, which shouldnot even matter, but most of you are so vain and cannot look past that. my personality is still the same, and so is everything i stand for. if you met me last year, or you met me a couple weeks ago, i am still the same exact person. now i must admit i have recently been SO motivated to "whore out" SocialVibe (in which i will gladly tell all of you i get NOTHING out of the deal other then the fact i m helping people get access to clean water which MOST of you take for granted anyway.) because i made a deal with them where instead of just signing up and then raising money, we can raise thousands just by having people sign up. THEN continue to raise money by having the endorsements on their page if they'd like. i am trying to motivate the 30k+ friends on my main myspace to stop being so selfish and take a few minutes out of their day to help someone else. please realize that as my friend base grows on there, it gets harder and harder to talk to my friends on here. i wish that i could freeze time, but i cannot.

i also had been so depressed lately. i am still house arrested till the next month. three of my bands mates are in prison now. only aaron is free. and as soon as i am free to, we will find new band members and finish our LP, then join escape the fate's "the war is ours" tour. and that will depress me even more. because ever since ronnie left, things have changed. now he's in jail, and everyone is backstabbing him. i cannot stand how craig took over his place. i hate him so much. and he hates me to. this is why his foot is broken now. *sigh* what's more max hates me. and what's worse is it's all bryan's fault!

also my health problems, and the medicine i take make me so aggressive and moody. and add the break up i had with a certain someone to all those...

whatever i'll be ok.

i'm ok.

oh i love gabe. (:
not in a gay way though.