"please speak softly or they will hear us and they will find out why we don't trust them."

speak up dear! 'cause i cannot hear you. i need to know why we don't trust them... where can i turn? 'cause i need something more surrounded by uncertianty... i'm so unsure of... tell me why i feel so alone. 'cause i need to know to whom do i owe... i thought you would make it
because you said that we'd make it through and when all security fails you'd be there to help me through.

explain to me; this conspiracy against me... and tell me how i lost my power.