".i'm just a waste of paint."  jigsaw___
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15/F/, Pennsylvania
Join Date: Aug 2007 |
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i'm so sick of being the one to put the neurosis back into the feeling of nervousness. it's like there's a spider living in my skin, and when it crawls around it gives off the most awkward sensation the world may ever know. it disturbs the insects in my stomach, who awaken and flutter and fly around. and something is inside of me squeezing my heart, making my chest tighten to a certain agonizing point. and i know i have to stop letting things get to me.
god forbid i actually open up my chest to reveal the mess inside, to let it all out, to show you, to tell you, to try to be honest. but i can never be completely honest, that's just opening myself up too far. then my heart becomes a target, and they become the archer, and fire away without warning. then i get no reaction, or at least not the kind of reaction any girl would want. that hurts. but just a little bit anymore.
tell them to look up. tell them to remember the stars.
tell them to remember hope. we have hope.
i'll blow my eardrums. i'll never have to hear you again.
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