 ice_queeny
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20/F/Wagga, Australia
Join Date: Jun 2006 |
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So we meet again, sorry i havent been writting to you, i kinda got busy and well....forgot about you. Well you'll be happy (you rotten bastard) to know that i'm miserable again. Actually....i'm not miserable, i'm freakishly calm. I got my results today for one of the tests at uni that i had to take and it was a test that i had to pass....only i didnt, and when i read it today i was like, iunno what i was like, i just didnt go off the cliff like i usually do. Maybe its because i know there is a slim chance that i could possibly pa** the subject if given the chance of performing another assesment, but i wont know until the 14th if they've given me that chance. I dont noe, it feels like i've turned into a ticking time bomb, i can see that if i dont get this additional assesment then i'm gonna blow up, like seriously go KABOOM and its all gonna come tumbling down. I guess if they told me now when they gave me my results if i were to get another assesment then it would be okay, it wouldnt be as bad if i didnt coz it wouldnt have built up....this is going to be scary and i mean really f**king scary, iunno what i'll do if i fail, maybe i'll just drop out or maybe i'll kick and scream and i'll kick a big hissy fit and fall....or maybe i'll just take it in my stride, hold my head up high and continue with the extra year....iunno, its scary 
On a happier note, i get to see Todd in like 2 days, i cant wait, i just need to see him, to smell him, to feel his breath on the back of my neck, feel his arms around my stomach, i just need to be with him, he's become like my air, i need him to live. I honestly didnt think that i would ever feel this way about ANYONE at all in my life, i didnt think i'd let myself but i dont think i had a choice in this one, this was hand picked for me...for me of all people, sometimes i wonder what i did to deserve him, he's just so good to me and i dont noe what i'd do without him, i think i'd die!
Oh god....is this the Ice Queen saying she's in love?? FUCK OATH IT IS, this is for real and is gonna last till i die at old age (well i hope i die wen i'm old) i'm gonna spend the rest of my life with him by my side and i honestly cant wait, this is my something that God gave to me to keep going, an incentive to reach for the stars,Its my fullfillment, its one part of my life that i no longer have to search for, my puzzle is complete, i'm happier than i've ever been, i love him so much. 2 DAYS!!!!
Current Music: Amazed - Lonestar
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