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27/F/I live in my own little world,
Join Date: Mar 2008 |
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| I quit my job Friday, I couldn't stand the misery and wanted to rescue my sanity so I quit. My relations w/ friends are in constant flux- how they feel about me& how I feel about them. I'm learning to not be so trusting of people, even friends. I'm an idealist, I thought it was okay to be pretty trusting of friends, but reality hit hard. I'm learning to self protect and not let myself be so vulnerable, it's just hard cause it's not natural for me- I'm self sacrificing and maybe to open and honest for my own good. I'm finally reaching some chemical stability, but my world is caving in on me and I'm trying not to break down or give up. I'm so sick of crying, I'm so sick of feeling lonely. I'm so sick of people hearing what they want to and never understanding me. But this too shall pass, it sucks but growing hurts, and I think that is what God is doing, testing and growing me. I know I can trust Him, and I trust in his love. Humans feel like aliens, I don't know if I'll ever get them. I'm learning most people who"care about me" seem to want me to hide my tears,tell them what they want to hear, not the honest truth. Well sorry all, I am who I am and never hid it, and if you'd rather hear what you want and only see me when it's fun and convienient, then that's just too superficial and ridiculous for me to be a part of. I'm seek of being a people pleaser. Sorry for the rant. I'm tired and hurt, at least if I can't trust people, I can fall into God's arms, which are much more secure. | |
lilbear
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lexxel
Über-Minister
15374 points | I believe you should have stuck with your job, even if you didnt like it. Whilst working there you could have seeked another job to take over its place in the future. Even if it was a negative it was also a positive thing for you
Im sorry that you are feeling down but hang in there, we all go through that in life and if people are superficial then its just their way of life. Your an actractive lady and sometimes taking the first step in regards to finding someone can be hard if you dont let go of these emotions you are having, Not every guy you meet will fall into your perception you may say. |
exiledempath
Über-Meister
1541 points | Hi Lori
For what it's worth I care about you and have no need to have you hide who you are.
talk to you soon.
stephen  |
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