"Always Outnumbered, Never Outgunned"  gideon1451
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17/M/Greater Manchester, United Kin
Join Date: Jul 2007 |
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Well, last night, I thought got a text from my girlfriend saying these boys were fit, and it really upset me. I was felt really stressed, annoyed, angry and helpless. But I checked my phone in the morning and I'd never got such a text, it was entirely dreamt up. My girlfriend isn't like that either anyway.
I felt so real though, I couldn't of dreamt it because I was awake, I remember feeling so bad so much, and punching my wall 
I don't know, I just thought I'd share this with you people. Anyone else had any experience of a dream so real before? This has happened before to me...
Current Music: Tv
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Well, that's what one of my 'apparent' best friends shouted as he ran at me trying to punch me 
I don't really understand why. Earlier, he ran off [in a mood with someone else], and hit my brother on the ay out in some mood. So I texted him saying that if he ever touched my brother again... One of my other friends that followed him saw that he looked at his phone and screamed that he was going to kill me and ran madly back up towards us and proceded to try and fight me, I was ready for him, I protect my family. Anyways, he didn't get far though. He got floored and sat on until he calmed down.
This is sort of a ranomd journal entry, but I was wondering if anyone can think of a reason why he'd want to kill me? I'd actually done nothing round. He was angry in the first place for nothing to do with me.
I think it's entirely unjustified and he hasn't tried to make contact with me since. I'm not his friend until he apologises.
Current Music: Oasis - Magic Pie
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Sometimes I'll just sit there
Staring into the unfilled space
Which is just air
No emotion on my face
I'm just thinking
Lost in an ocean of thought
And I'm sinking
I won't be joyful
I won't be sad
I won't be dull
I won't be mad
The difference thought brings
No one would guess this much
Inside it changes many things
Sometimes, that sea of thought
Is a calm and relaxed one
Other times, its a different sort
Deep swirling waters, dangerous like a gun
Churning whirlpools driven by emotion
As lightening of anger strikes above
Inside my heads an ocean
What's this all inside?
When its not shown
Couldn't you even of cried?
Are you not flesh and bone?
Sometimes its just easier
To keep the storm inside
Simplier to please ya
And to have lied
I used to popst al my emo lyrics I wrote on my MySpace. Looking back I never knew how depressing I was! I've so changed since March this year. I can only thank Charlotte [My girlfriend for the last 4 months] for that 
Current Music: Robyn - Cobrastyle
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Current Music: Linkin Park - Shadow Of The Day
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Okay then, I wrote it last night when it was raining:
HeartStorm
As I stand here
In the failing rain,
Every drop, every tear
I begin to understand the pain
The echo of each drop
As it hits the ground,
The sound you'd never stop
Running through my mind
That black shallow scene
Showed by a flash of light,
Now I know what they mean
The tears I'd loose the fight
Now comes the thunder
Finalising the storm
What was the blunder?
Though I won't morn
This heart won't stop beating
Just not for you,
Anymore.
What do you think?
Its kind of about a slight competition me and my best friend seemed to have for this girl because we both liked her. But I don't love her anymore...
I don't know, I don't think its that bad actually
Current Music: Kiss My Sass - Cobra Starship
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Name?:
Gideon Matthew William Jones.
Age?:
15.
Nationality?:
English.
Race?:
Caucasian.
Religion?:
Christian.
Height?:
6'1.
Weight?:
Around 10 stone.
Eye color?:
Blue.
Wear contacts?:
No, glasses.
Current hair color?:
Blonde.
Do you dye it?:
No.
Is it long?:
Not long enough.
Do you have bangs?:
Isn't that a fringe? I don't know what it is?
Are you patient?:
Depends.
Are you pessamistic?:
No, I'm a realist.
Do you like animals?:
They're ok.
Watch the Discovery channel?:
No.
Are you into sports?:
Not really.
Favorite sport(s)?:
Sailing/surfing?
Favorite movie(s)?:
I love loads! Maybe uncle Buck.
Book(s)?:
I love loads!
Song(s)?:
I love loads! My favourite have to be though:
Feeder - Shatter,
Nelly Furtado - Say It Right,
Linkin Park - Crawling,
Paramore - Never Let This Go,
Usher - Yeah.
Watch WWE?:
Nope.
What would you do without music?:
Be a lot more bored.
What song(s) can you relate to the most?:
Probably:
Feeder - Shatter,
Linkin Park - Papercut,
Paramore - Never Let This Go,
Chris Cornell - Arms Around Your Love.
Do you dance for no reason?:
I don't dance.
Are you sometimes shy to dance in public?:
Yes.
Do you usually make the first move?:
No.
Do you giggle a lot?:
Not really.
Have any pets?:
Nope.
If so, how many?:
*Doesn't apply*
When did you last go shopping?:
I don't really go shopping.
How much did you spend?:
*Doesn't apply*
What store did you go to?:
*Doesn't apply*
Do you take a long time to shop?:
When I do, I take ages.
Are you hard to shop for?:
Yes.
Do you drive?:
I can.
Own your own car?:
No.
If so, what year is it?:
*Doesn't apply*
Know anything about cars?:
Yes.
Are you sympathetic?:
Yes, but sometimes not if I don't like them.
Who did you last talk to?:
Emily.
What was your last meal?:
Sandwich.
What was your last drink?:
Blackcurrent squash.
Is your TV currently on?:
Yes.
Do you watch Lifetime?:
No.
Favorite band(s)?:
I have loads! Probably my favourite are:
Linkin Park,
Fort Minor,
Evanescence,
Paramore.
Favorite singer(s)?:
Justin Timberlake probably.
Did you ever get drunk?:
No.
If so, when?:
*Doesn't apply*
Do you like kittens?:
I prefer dogs.
What is your favorite color?:
Black/orange.
Favorite color combination?:
Black/orange.
Watch the news?:
Sometimes.
Are you in school/college?:
Yes.
If so, what grade are you in?:
10.
Are you a good student?:
I'd say so.
Are you currently listening to a CD?:
No.
If so, what song is currently on?:
Numa numa - O-zone on TV.
Do you get apprehensive around the police?:
My dad's a cop, so no.
Ever gotten arrested?:
No.
Spent the night in the slammer?:
No.
When was the last time you went partyin'?:
Never.
Are you lazy?:
Sometimes.
Like arguing?:
No.
Are you a good speller?:
I suppose.
Ever consider going into modeling?:
I don't think I could.
Ever becoming an actor/actress?:
No.
Are you in love?:
Yes...
If so, how long have you been together?:
I haven't.
Do you feel the end is near?:
*Doesn't apply*
Are you a huge dater?:
Not at all.
If not, can you count how many guys/girls you've been with?:
None.
How old were you when you received your first kiss?:
I've only ever received one from Charlotte Duncan, and that was truth or dare.
Ever been outside of U.S.?:
I've never been to the U.S.
If so, where?:
I live in England.
How long were you there?:
My whole life.
Been in a car accident?:
No.
If so, was it serious?:
What?
Do you talk about other people?:
Not really.
If so, why?:
*Doesn't apply*
Do you have fake MySpace pictures?:
No, they're all me.
Do you lie about your age on MySpace?:
No.
If so, why are you being dishonest?:
*Doesn't apply*
Ever cried when a famous person past away?:
No.
Like to drink tea?:
I've never had it.
Do you have more than 512 friends on MySpace?:
No.
Have an online journal?:
Yes.
Are you a crybaby?:
No.
Like to create drama?:
No.
If so, why?:
I don't like being the center of everything.
Wear eyeliner/makeup?:
No.
If so, do you wear a lot of it?:
*Doesn't apply*
What are you currently wearing?:
Jacket, trousers, t-shirt, socks, cap and underwear.
What would you say your style is? Punk, preppy, etc.?:
I'm my own style.
Do you work?:
No.
If so, where?:
*Doesn't apply*
How long have you been at your job?:
*Doesn't apply*
Do you get along with most people?:
I try.
Do you pretend to be someone you're not?:
No.
Do you fear people won't accept you for who you are?:
Not really.
How long have you had a MySpace?:
About two years, but I only figured out what it was last year.
Do you know a lot of your 'Friends' in real life?:
Not really.
Who was your first friend on MySpace?:
Tom of course.
What is the last movie you saw?:
Cloverfield.
What is your favorite commercial?:
The Lynx chocolate one.
Spent more than a thousand dollars in one day?:
Never spent a single dollar.
Been to SixFlags?:
No.
Have best friends, or just close friends?:
I don't know which of those they are.
Like to talk on the phone a lot?:
I prefer texts really.
Have siblings?:
Yes.
Do you get along most of the time?:
Yes.
Are you on anti-depressants?:
No.
Ever been so heartbroken to where you cried youself to sleep for months?:
No.
If so, do you still love that person?:
*Doesn't apply*
Do you have rich grandparents?:
They do both seem to be rich!
Did you ever feel lonely, even with friends around?:
Yes.
Are you a good test taker?:
I suppose.
Ever gotten an E in your favorite class?:
No.
Have a favorite teacher?:
Not really.
If so, who?:
*Doesn't apply*
Like to study?:
No.
Are you dorky?:
No.
Like to tan?:
Not really.
Like going to the pool?:
Depends.
Ever cleaned silver/gold?:
No.
Like cleaning your house?:
No.
What is the longest you've spent cleaning your house?:
Like all day to clean my room once and I wasn't allowed out 
Do you live on a busy street?:
It can be busy.
Are you scared of the dark?:
No.
Play board games?:
Sometimes.
Enjoy long walks?:
Sometimes.
Understand the Sign Language?:
Not anymore, I forgot it all :$
Like Punk Rock?:
Yes.
Think Linkin Park is awesome?:
Yes.
Still watch cartoons?:
Not really.
Laugh to Johnny Bravo?:
To who?
Would you ever want to visit Japan?:
Yes.
How about Greece?:
Yes.
How many bedrooms do you have in your house/apartment?:
Three.
Bathrooms?:
One.
What is the main color of your house/apartment?:
Yellow.
Are you a messy person?:
Sometimes.
Do you cuss a lot?:
Never.
Pray at all?:
When I feel like I need it. | |
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My sister read my blog... I'm so annoyed at her, it was where I wrote everything I never wanted anyone to ever know, and she deliberately searched for it and read it! I'm so so angry
Its so unfair!
Argh!!!!!
She's so flaming nosey! I never do anything like this to her!
On second thoughts, how did she even know I had a blog? Helena is the only person I told I had one... It can't be that she betrayed me? I love her... She couldn't?
Current Music: Paramore - Never Let This Go
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Argh! Its hurts me so much
Me and my best friend both fancy the same girl (actually, I think its more than that), but he's so much more confident than me. It hurts me so when I see them, and I feel that I just can't do anything... I feel so hopeless... Being shy ruins my life so much  I get so angry with myself I don't even know if there's a point fancying this girl too, she's bi, but I don't think she'll ever like me | |
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Whats this persons natural hair color?
Whats this persons eye color?
Whats is this persons fave food/drink?
Dose this person like chocolate or vanilla better?
Dose this person have a crush?
Is this person addicted to anything?
What is the persons fave color(s)?
Dose this person like Dogs or cats better?
Your opinion, don't be shy.
Is this person smart?
Smarter then you?
Is this person funny or do they try to hard?
Dose this person rock your socks?
If so, why?
Do you think this person is loyal to his/her friends?
Dose this person have an ego?
How about an alter ego?
Can this person sing?
Can this person read well?
is this person caring?
do you think?
That this person will end up in jail?
That this person will be a dead beat dad/mom?
Do you think this person will ever be addicted to drugs
Do you think that this person will die young?
Do you think that you will be friends with this person for a long time?
Do you think this person would have your back in a fight?
What would you do or say if...? Dont be shy, be honest.
This person got in a car wreck?
If this person just suddenly died?
If this person randomly burst into flames?
If this person said that he/she loved you?
If this person said that he/she hated you?
If you saw this person crying?
If you saw this person in a really dangerous situation?
If you saw this person acting like a total lunatic for no reason?
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1.)Q. Where are you right now?
1.)A. Dining room.
2.)Q. What was your dream growing up?
2.)A. To be a train driver! [When I was like 5 though]
3.)Q. What talent do you wish you had?
3.)A. To be able to dance.
4.)Q. If I bought you a drink, what would it be?
4.)A. Diet Coke/Cider.
5.)Q. Favorite food?
5.)A. Italian food.
6.)Q. What was the last book you read?
6.)A. Snakehead.
7.)Q. What zodiac sign are you ?
7.)A. Libra.
8.)Q. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings?
8.)A. None.
9.)Q. Worst Habit?
9.)A. I don't have one 
10.)Q. If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
10.)A. Since I can't drive, no, probably not.
11.)Q. What is your favorite sport?
11.)A. Does sailing count?
12.)Q. Negative or Optimistic attitude?
12.)A. Realistic.
13.)Q. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
13.)A. Who's me first off?
14.)Q. What was the worst thing to ever happen to you?
14.)A. I don't know.
15.)Q. Tell me one weird fact about you:
15.)A I think I have a double jointed thumb.
16.)Q. Do you have any pets?
16.)A. Nope.
17.)Q. What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
17.)A. Depends who I is?
18.)Q. What was your first impression of me?
18.)A. Depends who me is?
19.)Q. Have you ever been outside the country and where?
19.)A. To France, and Wales.
20.)Q. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
20.)A. Make myself more confident.
21.)Q. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
21.)A. I can be both
22.)Q. Have you ever been to the opera?
22.)A. Never.
23.)Q. Have you ever been arrested?
23.)A. Nope.
24.)Q. Do you dance at clubs or just sit and watch?
24.)A. Sit and watch 
25.)Q. If you won £10,000 today, what would you do with it?
25.)A. Bank!
26.)Q. Would you date me?
26.)A. Depends who me is?
27.)Q. What 's your favorite bar to hang at?
27.)A. I don't hang out at bars yet.
28.)Q. Do you believe in karma?
28.)A. Nope.
29.)Q. What's your favorite thing to do in your spare time?
29.)A. Hang out with friends.
30.)Q. Do you swear a lot?
30.)A. I don't swear at all.
31.)Q. What is your biggest pet peeve?
31.)A. People who just don't care.
32.)Q. In one word, how would you describe yourself?
32.)A. Shy.
33.)Q. Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same
33.)A. I am.
Current Music: Silence.
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