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Join Date: Jun 2007 |
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| 20 | | M | Hastings
New Zealand | | drakfuneral666@hotmail.com | | 211 | | 42.56 | | Jun 11, 2007 | | Oct 28, 2007 | | 299 | | 44 |
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I Speak My Mind And That About It
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Dear Journal...
Letting go is hard...but is it always this hard?
I have deep feelings for this girl that im mates with and now its gotten to the point where i must let go before i stuff up. Ive deleted her photos and number and everything but it's not helping one bit.
Shes an outstanding girl and beautiful too, cute, kind, shes everything a guy ever wanted. Shes perfect in every way. But letting go is something i can not do at all. First full day without texting r seeing her has made me go insane. literally!
ive been quiet all day and shrugged everyone off. Havnt said a single word. Ignoring everything. Is this what i should do? or is it something that ive let taken over me and can not control anymore.
Its tearing my heart up slowly and its painful not being with her.
Ive never felt this way about a girl before for the last 2 years and now im completely depressed and sad. Crying each night, wanting to run away from the problems but running away from it all doesn't solve anything because it will find you again andhit you harder than ever. | |
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hey guys im back! yes i will change my dp picture to a better looking one
i fianlly got my hair long enough so i can be the little emo i always wante to be
planning to dye my hair next week with black all over and red streaks with 1/3 red at the back of my head too.....which is soo cool
life is soo great right now, money is rolling in like tehre no tomoro
gettting paid like 800 - 1000$ a week which is f**king awsome
omg i have so much to say!!!!
lol
its been wild!! | |
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Siiting here, crying as i try to type what i feel.
Heart broken like no other heart has been broken before.
I dont know what there is to do but now im left alone to be single, no engagement to go through with, but memories of my Ex-Future wife playing me like a soccer ball on a soccer field.
Anger and Hate is taking over me and im sitting here letting it do that. | |
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Stay There.....I Dont Wanna Hear It
Things are screwed up between us.
you just had to say it.....why?
why say those words to me......i never wanted to know.
why did you? why you play me around like that......i thought you loved me!
listen i dont wana see your face or hear from you and your mouth full of s**t again.
you now leave me here in the darkness. watch me to rot. i dont understand why you did that. What came into your head!
go away! dont want to hear from you again! | |
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| theres always a time in peoples lives....where they want things back in their lives because they either regret losing it or just feel guilty for what happened. stuff like this i wish i had everyday.....like with my first crush.....i really want her back because of my feelings i still have for her are greater than anything i have for anything else. but really tehres times where you got to get your head round it and tell yourself that you've moved on. Who knows what will happen in the future....you may bump in to he person you loved and end up having coffee again. | |
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| I Can't Take This Shit Any More!!! I Swear To God Im Going To Just Go And Stab Myself Or Hang Myself Anytime Soon. I Hate My Life! Why Does It Have To Be So f**ked Up!!!! Theres No Point of fixing it because its beyond repairs! f**k everything and my life. f**k my friends and everyone! my life is over. sooo goodbye for f**king good. hope you guys have a f**king good life! in outa here i can't take this s**t no more!!!! good bye! | |
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Where Am I?
i wouldnt know right now.
lost in a whole load of feelings like suffocating on my own air i breath. Quiet and ignoring everything. Depressed and Sad i dont know where i heading really. Tell Me When this fear will end? how do i know if its reality or a just a dream. waking up each morning feeling sad with tears in my eyes. Mates try to help me but i push that away. ive broken heaps of hearts and its now haunting me. am i really the person who i really am now? was i born to hurt people for pleasure or just coz i want to. all this is f**ked up right now and im here typing this crying and wanting to scream and let it out. im living hell in darkness | |
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[Person 1:]
You come to me with scars on your wrist
You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this
[Person 2:]
I just came to say goodbye
I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine
But I know it's a lie
[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be
[Person1 1:]
Your parents say everything is your fault
But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all
[Person 2:]
I'm so sick of when they say
It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine
But I know it's a lie
[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be
[Person 1:]
[Bridge:]
The night is so long when everything's wrong
If you give me a chance
I will help you hold on
Tonight
Tonight
[Chorus:]
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be
The last night you'll spend alone
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go
I'm everything You need me to be
[Person 1:]
[Altro:]
I won't let you say goodbye
And I'll be your reason why
The last night away from me
Away from me | |
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Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is
Just waiting
To turn your tears to roses
I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is
A burning, consuming fire
[Chorus:]
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark
You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay here broken and naked
My love is
Just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses
I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is
A burning, consuming fire
[Chorus:]
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark
[Chorus:]
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No
You'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear my whispers in the dark | |
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I hate feeling like this
I'm so tired of trying to fight this
I'm asleep and all I dream of
Is waking to you
Tell me that you will listen
Your touch is what I'm missing
And the more I hide I realize I'm slowly losing you
Comatose
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
[Chorus:]
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you
[Chorus:]
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
[Chorus:]
I don't wanna live
I don't wanna breathe
'les I feel you next to me
you take the pain I feel
waking up to you never felt so real
I don't wanna sleep
I don't wanna dream
'cause my dreams don't comfort me
The way you make me feel
Waking up to you never felt so real
[Bridge:]
Breathing life
Waking up My eyes
Open up
Don't leave me alone | |
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