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22/M/melbourne, Australia
Join Date: Apr 2007 |
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Ok it's been a while since i updated my journal so this might be a bit long. so i figured i'd put it into sections to help me sort this out
Exams: well the uni semester is over and i'm now into my exams. i have 5, i've completed four and i'm thinking i should pa** these but the maths one coming up is the one i'm most worried about. University maths just sucks. I'm not a theory person so i don't really get the point of any of this stuff and because of this i hate learning it. Unfortunately if i fail two subjects this semester i'll get kicked out of uni, put simply i've failed too many allready. I'f this doesn't work i'm joining the army (i'm not kidding)or the salvo's (joking)
Cars: My car is really bugging me now, i've spent maybe 4 grand on it and the entire electrical system is still shagged. I'm going to re-wire the whole thing during holidays which will hopefully fix it, I'f it doesn't i'll be pissed and it would just hurt to sell it cause i dont have the money to fix it right now. Did i mention that the battery needs to be charged if i run the lights for more than an hour?
Money: Something i don't care about but yet has so much influence over my life. It's something i wish i could live without most of the time, trading would be better with me as far as I'm concerned. I'm working at a property maintenance place at the moment but not getting enough hours to make it worthwhile. This should change after exams but it takes so much out of me i don't have the energy to do anything once i knock off and since it usually starts at 7am i don't do anything before hand either. On top of this one of my housemates is moving out in june and now i have to cover part of her rent as well.
Girls: this is still a problem for me, if you've read my other journals you'll know this. My ex is still after me to the point of obsessive and I've said I'll hang with her again but made it clear nothings going to happen, she keeps pushing it and it's driving me nuts. On top of this i've had a crush on another girl for ages now but don't think she's into me like that and i'm too gutless to find out otherwise. I'm so used to having a girlfriend that i have no idea on how to actually go about asking someone out anymore anyway (havn't been single for about 7 years (different girls but always wrong for me)i have a strange habit of picking the girls with serious insecurities and erattic emotions. I'd say my last relationship was 30% good and 20%don't care and 50% dealing with irrational abuse. So yeah i'm screwed on all fronts so i think staying single is the right thing for me for a while.
Other: got new strings for my guitar so i can start writting my songs again which has always been a good way for me to cope with things. i'f you want to know more just ask. I think i'll start doing my art stuff again too, i really want to get into some photography but maybe thats just wishful thinking. what i really want to do is take my skates, my board and dissapear from everyone i know and start somewhere else without anything just basically backpack across the globe helping people out with their problems. Somehow i'm alot better at that than solving my own. I want a world where people aren't afraid to stop and help someone, where no-one walks past the beggar in the street abusing him and most of all forgivness. Seems like a pretty hopeless dream sometimes but hey if i stop trying i'll be what i hate.
Anyway thanks for reading, just needed to open up for a bit. Even if no-one reads this i think writting this stuff up it's just good to get it out.
Night all, wish you all the best
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Ok EAB stand for Ears Are Bleeding, and for good reason, i'f you reading this you can see my picture and you know what i drive.
The stock (optional extra) stereo in one of these consisted of a push button radio and a 4inch speaker, talk about weak.
I just cant deal with that lack of sound in anything. From about age 9 i was taught piano then guitar then trumpet then french horn and now i play didgeridoo. Music is what i am, it's how i get over bad days and it's what i do on a good one. So any car that i own has to have SOUND! I've played eletric guitar to wake up the neighbours, have the biggest ba** headphones i could find and on top of all this, my pride and joy is my car stereo.
So ive gone from the tape deck, put in an mp3 cd player from kenwood, 4 260watt pioneer 6" speakers (the ones that sit in your car door for those that dont follow this). 2 12" Kicker CVR subwoofers (400w RMS each) runnning on a 750wRMS kicker amp. All this means that my car puts out more than 2640watts of peak power, compared this to your everage home mini hi-fi's 500watts, and the kind of ba** that makes your head go numbin twenty minutes. That is why i am EAB and yes i have way to much time on my hands. :P | |
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Spent yesterday waiting for uni money to come. I'm fromm the country thus making me a 'disadvantaged' student. They didn't come.
So the whole day i was just bouncing around (litterally) then when i didn't get them in the mail it just got worse. I pretty much just lost my mind for 4 or so hours and jumped around the house and supermarkets and everywhere just been an idiot and singing 'rubber duckie' (it's a good song ok).
Apart from that my ex wanted to meet up with me again today and i just can't handle her anymore. I told her no and said myabe for next week or something. I'm happy about it, maybe now she'll finally get the point that i don't want her back.
Had a thermodynamics lab at uni today as well, was pretty good, just playing with engines and calculating power figures and stuff, the engine we used had a pitiful 15kW  so dodgy. But apart from that i haven't been up to much recently, just watching Naruto, im up to episode 106 and its taking way to long. Definately worth it though.
I'm off to JB HI-FI to drool over subwoofers while my mate has his job interview
Have fun people
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I am the king of beer fest, fastest shotgun and all out champion chugger,
My team of drinkers, Macca, A new mexican and i competed against 9 other teams in a house party drinking contest last night and came home victorious,
1st round, shotgunnning
2nd round, Beer bongs
3rd round, King cup chugging elimination contest
Final, coin toss, fast shots, upside down beer bongs.
We had about 10 people power spew throughout the night, including me, but on the whole it was an absolutely brilliant night of drinking with mates, the girls team did amazingly well (unexpected from a bunch of general non-drinkers) but we beat them in the final,
today is recovery day, i always seem to want to go driving on recovery days, really not a good idea when your on P-plates, or anylicense for that matter, too much risk involved in drink driving, im sure allmost everyone would know someone whos been killed as a result of drink driving, and my support goes out to all those people and their families.
But recovery day has gone well, i'm not feeling it at all, unlike my housemate who's only just coming good by the looks of things,
unfortunately i also have a test tomorrow which i have to study for, shouldnt be that bad but still, need to put in a bit of an effort i think, i also told my ex that i might meet her tomorrow, i don't really want to cause she's just become a pain in the a** really, i dont want to be mean baout it so i'll just stop there.
anyway, have fun everyone
cya
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Ok i am upgrading the system in my car, from a 15 inch subwoofer to twin 12's. . . lots of noise, i also need 700 bucks to do so, but i really dont care, im a ba** addict and i want more. Now i just have to wait on my money to come through.
I'm also off to get totally pissed tonight, we have tomororw off uni as its ANZAC day and all
respect goes out to all the Vet's and soldiers of Aus and NZ, you guys(and girls) are heroes
but yes i am off to a night of boat races, chugging contests and various other drinking games, should be awesome.
anyway i will see you all later, have a great night and i'll let you know what happened once i have recovered
cya | |
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my ex girlfriend rocked up again tonight, univited, and she was sick so i coudln't get rid of her, i spent two hours taking care of her and listening to her tell me how much she misses me and wants me back, seriously why the hell can't she get it. leave me the hell alone.
she does this everytime i see her now, i've had to start looking out for her, she waits outside my uni classes,, she even went into them today looking for me cause she couldn't reach me on my phone, which was off for an all too obvious reason.
it's not like im the type of guy who strings people along, i've told her a million times it's over and she refuses to listen, and she wont leave my house when i ask her too, she askes me what wrong when i start to get pissed!? how can she not see that i want her out.
how the hell am i sposed to get over her if she won't leave me alone, it sucks and i hate it but i'mtoo nice too tell her to f@ck off. i'm not that kind of guy. it just makes me more and more confused and pissed everytime she tries to hold my hand or hug me or whatever, please i wish she'd just let me get over her
anyway enough of that, sorry to lay this on you guys but i need to write it down, vent it whatever
thanks for listening
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Ok today i got good news at uni, my maths test was so hard that the teachers have scraped it, YAY! which means that i havn't failed maths, and hopefully wont.
I'm also off to a drinking party tomorrow night which should be interesting cause the people on my team can not skull at all, which means that i will have to carry us through to victory ( or till we all pa** out and have to get our stomaches pumped), but im okay with that at the moment,
i also have wednesday off uni which is great cause i'll be able to recover and relax and study for the test on thursday,
as to what i'm going to do about my ex i honestly don't know, i don't want to take her back but i'm still kind of hung up about it, and she's not really giving me much of a chance to get over her. I'm thinking i just turn my phone off for a few days and she might take the hint, tho last time i did that she panicked and thought i was dead. made the rest of my family panick as well which wasn't fun
anyway enough ranting for now, i'm off to watch naruto (if you know what that is i allready consider you a friend) and eat cake (if i can find anything that looks like it in the house)
have funn people
cya | |
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well i have a test this week on thursday that i havn't studdied for yet, but it's a reletavitleasiy ( f@ck ) easy subject compared to the rest, thank god i don't have english anymore,
im still catching up with my ex-girlfriend who's still hung up on me a rocked up at my house completley uninvited the otherday and is still trying to get me back, sometime i want her as well but i just cant forget all the crap she put me through, that and i just want a life where i don't need to worry about saying the wrong thing and remembering stuff for a while (or at leat not as much)
had my housewarming last week that was awesome, we fit 16 people into a car thats only licensed to carry two, lots of fun! popped the back windows out as well.
but anyway, essentially at the moment my life is a bit of a mess and im pretty stressed out, (by my standards anyway) and i just want a break for a bit but thats not gonna happen for a while so i guess i'll just vent on here till it does,
thanks for listening ( reading, whatever)
cya | |
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