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Mega Über-Meister
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18/F/Dartford. Kent, United Kingdom
Join Date: Sep 2006 |
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Can't believe I havent been on here for so long, not sure why I stopped coming on :/
doubt anyone even remembers me but hi to everyone anyway 
hope everyones been keeping well 
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so its my bday woooo  ermm no ... im working in an hour which means no going out and enjoying myself, but standing infront of a counter handing people drugs that im secretly hoping will kill them...
supposed to be a good day, but im slightly miserable 
ah well maybe next weekend I can celebrate
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our new place is just being built and its finally got 2 floors!! no roof yet but hey who needs that with this beautiful english weather we get 
it looks amazing!
and so much bigger than what it did before.
at first i wasnt too sure if moving was the right thing to do due to how much money its costing, but seeing it as close to completion as it is now (ready in 3 months) has made me realise this is definately the right thing to do i cant wait!! 
im so happy right now!!
so im just off to do my second shift of the day at work so shattered, but nothing a can of red bull can sort out  or 5 cans 
hope everyone has a good day
love you all
xxxx
Current Music: cute is what we aim for - the curse of curves
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So I decided that the whole long distance realationship I have with him wouldnt matter, that id trust him no matter what since we've always been so close, but now im not so sure 
he's been really distant recently and well you start getting paranoid dont you? especially if you cant be with him to sort out whats going on.
Daniella convinced im talking out my arse, and that he wouldnt cheat on me no matter what as hes madly in love. She thinks the only reason why im thinking this is because my ex cheated (the only guy to my knowlege who has even cheated on me) and its batterd my confidence...but I dont know what to think anymore, he says that its all in my head, maybe it is, but it doesnt stop me worrying like hell.
Ive never been this insecure before, especially over a guy I just want to see him
Current Music: Good Charlotte - keep yours hands off my girl
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This long distance deal will never work I dont think...its only been 2 weeks since I saw him last and im missing him like crazy, havent talked to him in a couple of days either
This is the third time we've tried 'us' and each time it seems to get harder for me...I just dont know what to do anymore  | |
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Well my life is pretty boring, so I dont tend to add many entrys to my Journal but I thought id give you all an update, because of course thats all you guys really look forward to in life isnt it
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Current Music: Bullet For My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
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BYE BYE ... dont be too sad, stay strong for me
Im betting I get no replies
night night xxxx | |
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So this guy who I was very close to, stopped talking to me and lost all contact with him for no apparent reason. Okay fine I can deal with that,I very much believe that if you dont like me f**k off, but now he's back and is acting as if nothing changed?
im starting to think I'd be much better off by following the crowd and becoming a dyke, much less agro as far as I can see | |
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ive just split with my guy while he phoned me from holiday!!
i didnt even mean to but it just kind of happend, now i might have wrecked whats left of his hols and not feeling too great about myself
why do people say and do stupid things that they know will upset themselves and other people? it sucks for lack of a better word =/
oh well i suppose it gives me a chance to get all my stuff out of his place before he gets back...saves awkward moments
i hate myself
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so i did want to move house but now im not so sure
ive spent my whole life in this house and i thought a change would be nice, bigger bedroom (even though mine is quite big at the moment) and my own bathroom and dressing room etc (i sound spoiled! lol), more room for things i suppose but this house has memories (good and bad) and i kind of want to stay here now
thing is parents have now got their heart set on this new house so i dont have much of a say anymore.
i should be grateful and i am but i just want to stay put | |
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