its been two years today that i lost some one close to me.... for the first few months i kept seeing ghosts.... i kept looking up and seeing my ex at door ways looking at me and i just couldnt deal with it at the time i became very introvert not speaking much... *wistful sigh* this morning i thought i saw my ex i just stopped where i was looking at the open door and i felt though there was sun on my back because i just felt really warm knowing that no matter what i went to see her while she was in hospital knowing i was going to break... i think that was what she wanted to know no matter what she always loved me