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17/F/Aberdeen, Washington
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So I decided that I needed new pictures here on the forum site, so I have put up new ones if you want to look and comment 
Also, I've dyed my hair bright pink and its hella awesome and kicks everybodys ass!
I was proposed to last night by my boyfriend!  I might be pregnant but not sure yet I take the test in two weeks. (hope I'm not)
Apparently Skot ships out sooner now instead of June he's leaving in April... sad face moment. Really sad. I'm going to be moving in with him soon in Monte. Haha were gonna have a pink room! Flippin sweet I won his brother gave him the pink room instead of blue!
And yepperz. thats the update yo! 
Everything is all happy face moments and a world of cotton candy, snow cones, and rainbows once again
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So we've been together for a while now. He seems like he really cares. He's different then all the other guys I've been with. I care about him alot I'm just extremely scared.
In june hes going to the marines. He ships off to california for boot camp and stays there for 3 months and comes back for a 9 day visit then leaves for 6 more months.
I'm really scared that he is going to go in and i'm going to be sitting around waiting to find out he's dead. I've never been in the situation that my boyfriend is going off to war.
I've talked to all my friends, family, and him about it. My dad says he doesn't think I'll make a good army wife, my friends say if I care about him enough I'll stay with him, and he told me he knows its alot to ask for me to stay with him while he's gone but he really wants to be with me. I want to stay with him but I'm just so afraid I'll fall in love and be hurt by finding out hes dead or something.
It's one thing to lose a boyfriend your in love with but another to lose them to war.
Also, another thing... I might be pregnant. I don't know what to do if I have a baby and he is off at war. He told me I could move to military base with him but still, I want my baby to know his or her dad. I dont know what to do. I really care about skot alot and I know he cares about me. He's already trying to find us a place, planning ahead on income, and wants to eventually have kids but idk. This is all alot for me and I'm really stressing because june isnt that far away and isnt as much time as people think it is to have time to think... grr
Current Music: Linkin park- Given up
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So today wasn't exactly the best day. My boyfriends sister came to stay the night last night and everything was fine. We went downtown today and she mouthed off to every f***ing street kid, kept calling my ex a stalker, and hit on every guy that walked. I had to remind her multiple times that she was jail bait because she is 15 and she kept hitting on all my guy friends which all happen to be over 21 and apparently when I walked away she lied about her age to everyone. I'm so f***ing mad. You don't lie about your age to an older f***ing guy. They can go to f***ing prison and I would be so pissed if any of my friends went to prison over her dumbass. Also, she hung on everybody and pissed everybody off to the point that all the street kids went to a concert to go kick her ass. So my boyfriend had to go deal with her s*** and now I can't go to stay at his house tonight and I have to wait all because of her. Skot was supposed to come and get me but apparently there isn't room in the car for me and my son and this really sucks. His mom said he should have had me catch the bus out there and him come in later instead of telling me to wait to leave. grr bad day.  | |
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I always wanted to be popular and just like all the cool kids. I tried to dress like them, act like them, and be them. Nothing ever worked. It's funny how years change. I look nothing like they ever did, i dont do the things they did, dont have the same grades nothing about me is like who the popular people were.
Every time I go downtown I get mobbed by people. I dont know what I did or how I met so many people. It's really weird, no one used to like me and now I have to hide from 30-40 people a day. It really sucks. I dont know why I always wanted to fit in now that I know all people do is f***ing follow you. Sure it doesnt sound that bad but there is alot of annoying people. Usually when I'm downtown I'm with my friend Mike and every where we go people spot us and follow. Want to know what we are doing, where we are going, what we are doing the next day... and so on. It sucks. We cant get away from people. Sure it feels great to know so many people care but it sucks at the same time. Also, if I'm not with mike every one asks omg wheres katt! and same with me... it like how bout we form a line for the people who ask where is mike and take turns asking the same question the last person asked. Its horrible. Every where I go guys follow and every where he goes girls follow. We cant go anywhere without being spotted. The other day we sat at a table at the mission... completely empty. All of a sudden two tables moved to our table and it was completely packed.
Sometimes I'm just glad I'm not famous cause 30-40 people is bad enough. I've never even done anything great, accomplished anything, or been a hero... yet everyone wants to hang out, be with me, follow me, and stay the night at my house... grr this f***ing sucks. then if i dont go downtown everyone freaks out like omg where is katt. and they hunt for me all over town. I'm just glad no one knows where I live  that would be so much worse. there is a reason no one knows.
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I am so proud of him!  about 4-5 days ago he went and got signed on the nirvana record label. He took his guitar (kurts old betty boop guitar) and went and played and got signed. He has 3 months to make his album. I see rob all the time and hes downtown at the bum park playing his guitar and i hang out with him and my friend mike too. all of us sit together, drink, listen to music, play guitar, and have a good time. Finally he got somewhere. so excited for him. he came up to me and mike the other day telling us and he was so proud. I really hope it works. I'm sure it will. He also played in the melvins when they first started so if anyone knows alot of history on them before they got big they would know who he is. I just hope rob slows down on his drinking though that way he can finish his album. he has a really bad drinking problem. Every time I see him hes really drunk or getting there. He walks around here in Aberdeen alot. I feel bad for him cause the other day when we hung out he broke down about kurt. he was so upset. but then again you cant blame him. Hes really convinced kurt killed himself but alot say he didnt but rob breaks down all the time that hes gone. he lost his family. but at least rob still has his two kids alexandra cobain and god i cant remember his sons name. but other then that im so excited! A really great person in life is getting somewhere. He is such a nice guy and really deserves this
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So today at least was more calm then most days and I feel a little better. After my dad flipped out on tracy he hasnt emailed, instant messages, called, or came over. I hung out with his mom today though. We went over to her house and had hot dogs and just hung out. She gave my son some clothes, which was pretty cool. I seem to be getting along with her better lately now that she knows the truth that tracy lied about me keeping my son from his family. Now she knows that he never asked if his family could see him he just lied and said my answer was no. But who knows what is going to come tommorow lol. Could be bad or good. Hope its good and I hope things stay this way =] Id be alot less stressed
Current Music: television
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So for 3 years I have been off and on with my babies dad. At first when I met him he was nice and he wanted to do everything for me. Over time he became an a*****e and I never realized it but slowly over time there was rules being set on how I can't see or talk to guys, where ever I go he has to know who i'm with, where I'm at, what time I'll be back, also if I was on the phone he had to know who it was and if I didn't tell them he'd flip out saying Who the f*** is on the phone!
We haven't been together in a really long time, but recently he started coming over again trying to hang out and while he was hanging out I didn't know it but he would call his girlfriend and tell her to meet him at a time the call me and say I'll meet you and completely blow her off. I never knew this till two days ago and I'm really mad. One day his girlfriend waited 4 hours for him on his porch and he never showed up. This guy is a huge jerk. I'm always afraid to talk to him because if I say something he always takes it the wrong way, calls me names, or says f*** you and michael I'm not his dad when hes mad. sometimes I get the feeling he'll end up hitting me. The other day when he was mad he flew down stairs at his friends like he was going to hit me right in front of my son then he stopped him self.
Before that had happened he tried to throw me off a balcony on the second story of a hotel. He claimed it was a joke when I was 3 quarters of the way off the balcony. As soon as i started screaming he pulled back over and said wow you actually thought I'd do that and I told him I wouldn't doubt it. Then he came over slamming on the keyboard after I got back in side and said I'm gonna throw you off the balcony again and picked me up. I had wrapped my legs and arms around the chair and when he was pulling me out the door to the balcony he smashed my hand in the door between that and the chair and almost broke it. So I had dropped the chair and he tried to throw me over again. I hate this guy and it is so hard to get away from him. He guilt trips me everytime I want to get away, and when I leave he'll show up at my door, call, message me, see me around town. I don't know what to do. I've put up with this s*** for way too long. I hate him and I can't get away. Even his family is scared hes going to hit me and they tell me to get away but when I try he follows.
Current Music: tv
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So Mike and I decided to go sit at the park today and it's the park that bums are always at.
We were just sitting there and all of a sudden one of the bums freaked out on his dog for walking away and started screaming at it and grabbed it. And by doing that it pissed off the dog. All bums around here have dogs so there was a total of 5 dogs and when the guy pissed off the dog like all 5 dogs started attacking each other.
Lol, all of a sudden all the bums ran to the dogs, of course, and they were all smoking and were freaking out screaming get your dog off of mine get him off and they were all trying to break apart the dogs with one hand while still holding their cigarettes. Whenever the dogs were finally broken apart they would attack again. If the bums weren't so worried about their cigarettes they could have easily broken up the dogs but eventually the people started getting attacked by the dogs for trying to break them up and so two of the bums started screaming and hitting each other.
Haha, typical day in aberdeen! It was so funny. If people were there to see it everyone would totally understand how funny it was. They went on for about 10 min. doing this.
But also it shows dont be mean to dogs cause it triggers them sometimes and that guy that was freaking out on the dog totally was in the wrong. But the way they all started screaming and hitting each other over dogs was really funny and the whole time worried... about a cigarette trying to break up a dog fight of five dogs. Losers!
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So anytime I have plans with my friend Mike he always says he is going to show up. Most the time he does but he's usually always late. When I was dating him, all the time he would blow me off because someone would ask him to make plans after we had some already and he would choose their plans because it involved pot, shrooms, or alcohol.
Today he told me he was going to show up, so I was like kool. Then I get a message from him saying he's going to go drink with his friend and he'll show up later. Well, he never showed up. I wasted a whole day of my life waiting for that a*****e to show up. I am so mad and feel worthless that he would choose them over me.
I also know that if there was no alcohol involved with his friend he would have come over. So, that makes me even madder that he would put s*** like that before me.
Yes, I drink too and it's fun but I don't put s*** like that before other people. I know what it's like to feel like s*** from people doing that so I wouldn't do that to someone else.
I'm just so f***ing mad right now.
Other then that he's an awesome friend and hes really caring and helps me out alot but some of the s*** he does I dont even know what to think. 
Current Music: tv-family guy
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So ever since I moved into my dads house I have so many options on what to eat because he has the money to support me. Recently any time he comes home he has fast food to give to me.
Every day this week I have had fast food some days I have 3 different kinds of fast foods, like the other day I had KFC, Dominos, and McDonalds. Even though I've been eating all this food I am so confused because I am trying to gain weight and havent gained a freakin pound. I eat alot of fast food how come I can't gain weight like other people. It makes me mad, because whenever people see me they look at me and go oh she must be anorexic. No I'm not I eat probably more then alot of people. Grr I'm getting so mad. 
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