Maybe that is what the journals are for... when you really need to explode and get something off your chest & mind, you write in your journal here on TFS and keep it under "private." I'm not hurt or offended by what others have said to me, because I noticed lately posts talking about people just saying their opinions...I'm fine with that. Besides, the truth is no one knows my life. Only a small portion gets spoken here. I know what I am. I know who I am. I know my flaws & what God wants of me w/ those flaws. I know He is disciplining me... and that He lifts me. I like where I am at; and where He is going to take me. Fear...it has NO room in my life. The ONLY thing I fear is God! Bitterness, yes I am, but can anyone else in the world say that they don't have some kind of bitterness in them. We are working on it in me...He will make all things possible. I will become who & what He wants me to be. That's all I wanted to do that day was do my share of ranting in life. I can say that doing that post a was real let-down... made me feel like I still don't get to release when I need to release. Take my burdens & lay it down to God, that is what He says in the good book...so I shall.