I watched the clock/time for some reason today. Time was like crawling really slowly . The day still isn't even over as I write this journal entry. Sometimes its a real pisser being me. I give too much is what people tell me. I am too nice. Why do I let people walk on me so much... blah, blah, blah. If only I could be ruthless like many of those already in the world. Yes, I know... it is not what He wants of me. It is not how He has made me.

It is rare in my life... but I do feel very crushed today. I feel like the bad is coming on strong & toppling me. Trying its darndest to keep me down. I know I can't let it. And I truely believe He won't let it! What & Who would I be today if He had not taken me as one of His children... I AM VERY BLESSED.