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 treebee UM - BONGO Über-Administrator 157437 points | I think i will sell my house next year September 01, 2008 @ 10:20:29 am | I was thinking about it last night. If I sell my house I can be completely debt free. Financially i will be better off if i sell my place and rent somewhere for a while.
It may sound like property ladder suicide but actually im not staying in the UK and in order to emigrate i need to be debt free, hassle free, possession free with some lovely money in my account.
There is no way i can acumulate any cash at the moment, with the weight of the mortgage and loans around my neck.
For a little while last night that kind of financial freedom just hit me and it felt so good. And its not just about the money, its about letting go of all the crap around me, the furniture, the clothes that dont fit, the baby toys in the attic, the s**tty garden fence that falls down every year, the toilet that wont flush, the kitchen lights that flicker, the chavvy kids who kick a football at my car every day.
I want to take my money and my kids and leave and start over again.  13 comments | Reply |
 treebee UM - BONGO Über-Administrator 157437 points | Weird mood today August 26, 2008 @ 11:07:21 am | I am going all high maintenance for some reason. Mr Treebs is so busy right now, why is it when he is at his most stressed and needs me to be strong that i suddenly become emotional and ridiculous?
Its not normones, i can rule that out for sure. I am pretty tired. Last night i was in bed and it was one of those nights. Where you cant sleep and you are stone cold sober and all of a sudden those tiny niggling doubts at the back of your head, the ones you can push away in daylight all come at me like a monster from under the bed.
I drive myself into the most pathetic state for absolutely no reason.
Today i am so tired and kinda mad at myself for leaning on him when he is at breaking point. Yet he still can say "I love you baby, think positive".
My bank called, some early 20 something bitch, threatening to close my account of 18 years over a £10 overdraft. She asked if i read the letters they send me. I told them most of what they send me is s**t anyways.
She asks me why is my account under stress? Why? school holidays, long month, August, the sun sets in the west, the government taxes, price of food, petrol what f**king business of hers?
She is threatening to close my account if i dont pay £10 in today.
I sure hope her husband doesnt leave her with 2 kids and no income later on in her life. Good luck finding childcare and feeding and clothing those kids. Make sure your account doesnt go over by £10 because its VERY serious.
Pffft in a way that stupid bitch kinda pulled it into perspective for me. It made me realise that stupid c**ts will always be out there and somehow i take reassurance in this and can remain sane for another day.6 comments | Reply |
 treebee UM - BONGO Über-Administrator 157437 points | Thats it Im off to join clown school or hunt big foot August 15, 2008 @ 07:27:32 pm | one or the other9 comments | Reply |
 treebee UM - BONGO Über-Administrator 157437 points | Freaky August 11, 2008 @ 10:27:43 am | OMG you know when something really strange happens like:
Just now i was thinking of someone and all of a sudden a song came on the radio which makes me think of them - this song isnt normally on the playlist on capital. I know its coincidence but  11 comments | Reply |
 treebee UM - BONGO Über-Administrator 157437 points | Deaf as an old boot August 01, 2008 @ 10:18:25 am | Ok so i knew i had some problems hearing. I just didnt realise how bad. I went for audiology today and basically I have almost identical hearing loss in both ears. Which is pretty rare. My hearing is the equivalent of a 70 year old. I had a mould taken of my inner ear and im having a hearing aid fitted in a couple of weeks.
I have to go back every year so they can keep a track of the progression. They are hoping the hearing aid will slow down the loss.
I think the only thing that bothers me is the fear of total loss, it sucks that i dont hear music properly any more. If i had no music at all i think it would seriously depress me.
I dont really care about wearing a hearing aid. I dont have to look at it do i?  14 comments | Reply |
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