well my day hasnt been going too well..im kinda depressed and my eyes hurt forum crying for an hour. i got in a fight wiht my mom today and i dont feel good at all i feel sick....i have no one to talk to about this right now and i dont think anyone wants to listen...i wanna juss commit susaside ....like i said before i have said this so many times but i donno if i would be missed or not.... my moods are changing way too much ..at times i will all happy and then some one will upset me and i cant help but get depressed...and everytime i get depressed i get a head ache....i fell unloved right now that sux and in a way i wanna die but in a way i really Dont!! ( ......wait i dont wanna die i juss wanna hide my face from the public for no reason at all .....i think my medz are screwing me up..but i dont wanna be taken off my ADHD cause it has been helping me concentrate in school and i dont wanna fail from not being able to pay attition.....I REALLY NEED SOME ONE TO TALK TO but i dont wanna make anyone listen who DONT wanna listen so i guess im gonna go sit in my room and write poems but before i do that read my poem i wrote today..i really wrote this im not freking kidding this is the best poem i have ever wrote and trust me i can only write good poems when i fell unloved ( cause im weird like that )... it describes the way i feel right now and it's also talking bout my sucky life.




" I Walk In The Rain "


As i stand on my poarch, theres tears in my eyes.
I walk out into the rain, things racing in my mind.
This life i live is full of pain.
It's full of hurt and full of shame.
I begin to walk the lonely road.
Sadness upon me from my head to my toes.
The sadness is showing upon my face and in my eyes,
and i walk in the rain cause no one can see me cry.



This is like so true about me cause i love to walk in the rain during summer..... cause im weird like that.... anywayz thats my poem...i g2g now and be emo so buh bye
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