 becky_pepper
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9453 points
19/F/Stourbridge, United Kingdom
Join Date: Aug 2007 |
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I may need some advice or not I'm not sure, everything in my life is so so messed up at the moment and I can't get anything right. I can't think straight anymore and it's driving me crazy.
I've moved house with my partner and we're now living in our own house with Pete's mate Ozzy and soon Ozzy's partner Ashliegh...we're paying rent to Ozzy's parents, it's £126 summat a month.
Ozzy and Ashleigh represent youth Scotland athletics with their running and get paid, plus Ozzy's parent;s are paying his rent. Pete and I are in a tricky situation though. I am unemployed, I have not been able to find a job, and believe me...I've tried...I've lost count of the amount of interviews that have resulted in an never ending silence on their behalf.
Pete sort of has a job...he rings up and decides his shifts...though due to not having a land line it's tricky getting in touch with folk. we need to use our mobiles which also cost money for credit!
i just don't know what to do anymore, i'm trying to please everyone by going for a good job, but I keep setting goals that are far too high...and as you can guess no one's getting in touch! But I'm finidng it hard to get goals that are low! My only skills are cleaning,art and bar work...2 of which I want to move away from. I was hoping to use my artistic skills but it's not gotten me anywhere!
I've come down with a bloody head cold, can't breath out my nose and I keep getting light headed and at times it's hard to stay focused/concious, I've lost loads of sleep due to it and it's really knackered my mode of thought.
I'm terrified that I'm going to lose everything through my stupidity...you may all have a go, saying well you did ask for it..I know I did, I just don't know how to sort it!I want things to work out right but it#s so so hard!
What can I do...lathargy is sinking in now...*i hate this cold* it's really f**king my head up and bringing me down! Maybe there is no space for a mere idiot like me in this world?!I don't know...but it's looking that way for me... 
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angelcake
Über-Monkey
57046 points | | You might just have to grin and bear stuff such as bar work, for the time being at least |
hedkandi1984_21
Minister
11548 points | I think what you should do is talk to careers counsellor about your career choice and see about getting qualifications or an apprenticeship in the area you want. It might not be your qualifications letting you down. You should write to employers asking why they didn't hire you, and you could be surprised. The feedback will help you I'm sure.
I wish you the best of luck.
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gideon1451
Debater
5196 points | | Confused and awkward... I've felt that way too much... |
gia
Points Whore
920 points | | Its so hard to stay focused and positive when you are getting rejected for jobs all the time. Its out there for you, just keep trying! Drink some vitamin water and get plenty of rest for your cold, I hope you feel better real soon! |
dolliver60
Apprentice
17 points | | do things for you not anyone else.....after all its your life... |
butterflybelle
Über-Meister
1567 points | | Take things a day at a time and only make descisions you are sure you can live with. |
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so so confused and awkward
