 becky_pepper
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19/F/Birmingham, United Kingdom
Join Date: Aug 2007 |
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Has anyone ever had one of those weeks? Starts off with have you ever had one of those days? and then sorta spirals out throughout the week! I'm currently having one of those weeks so far today! and it's not fun let me tell you!
Monday - if possible - has been more probably the best day of the week for me so far!?!? Why I hear you say? because I knew where I stood in matters!!!!!! 2 interviews, 1 to say yes I'm still looking for a job, thank you, bye!...2nd someone helping me to find a volunteer work place to gain experiance! and also my mom getting back from Bulgaria 
YESTERDAY garrrrrrr!!!!!!! Mum has the day off and suddenly I'm the one being blamed for anything around the house that hasn't been done/hasn't been cleaned etc! Try to get in touch with a certain someone and it's like banging my head against a brick wall!
As you can see I'm a tad peeved to say the least! I just want to know where I stand in matters! And I tend to get frustrated when I try to arrange something and all I get is the silent treatment!
that and the weather's crap! It's supposed to be summer I mean come on!? Still, at least my hayfever'll give me a rest today! *she says sneezing*
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I just found something out............
I'VE LOST 3 POUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and that's not the cash pound!!!!!!!!! 
Current Music: arctic monkeys - I bet that you look good on the dancefloor
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I'm trying so hard to stay positive but things are just getting too much now!I've always been a negative thinker and my partner has been trying to help me stay positive and I have to admit that up untill today I was doing fine! Today though has so far pushed me to the limits.
The other day while browsing on my myspace I found that a girl I used to be really close friends with while at school had added some new photos of herself, though she looked unbelievably thin, and naturally I began to worry. The photo itself was a nice pic' though the image of her being so slim worried me,as she has had health troubles in the past. I posted her a comment complimenting the photo though pointing out I was worried about how thin she looked in it...what did I get in reply?
"im holding a f**king camra so my mucles are stretched and tence. I'm quite offended that ppl say stuff like that to me who dont see me in the flesh."
" U knw im happy with my body and when ppl say stuff like that it upsets me. I knw i was prohaps a little abrubt eirlier but the truth is i've had modeling agencies contact me and i am not starving myself at all fare enough i did go threw a rough patch one but im healthy now and when ppl upset me about my body it makes me feel like s**t and get verry angry. Hope u understand now"
I guess I was being stupid really being worried 
not only that I had yet another rejection letter come through the post (no surprise there) though I was feeling confident about the job as I'd had a good talk with the store manager when I handed in my application form! 8 months and hardly a good job! What the hell am I doing wrong?! 
I guess I'm just a waste of space, no one seems to give a sod about how I think or feel! No one seems to want to employ me, I guess I should face up to the fact that I may have to move bakc to my original home and suffer depression about the fact I won't be seeing my partner every morning!
Why is this happening to me?!?!?!?!?!?!
Current Music: don't speak - No doubt
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goin tempin bowling with the partner soon! Any hints on how to beat a male in his prime?  | |
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Ok I'm kinda hacked off! My last entry mentioned how I didn't have long enough breaks (20 min's in total) I have found out today that I only have sunday as a day off! When I was told I'd be having Saturday off too! It's my 5th day there and I'm already getting pissed off with the managers!
I was talking to a colleague earlier, she says the main reason her last relationship didn't work out was because of the job, they constantly gave her night shifts so she didn't have time to see her partner. She was always asleep and there were constant arguments. Not only that but they have one girl doing a night shift and they've made her do the afternoon shift the very next day!!!!!!!
I do not want to have to lose my relationship because of those gits! I really have had enough! I was treated like crap yesterday by the manger when I had the day off, and she couldn't meet my eye today, she kept making snide remarks about me to the deputy manager and to the rest of the staff and shut up when I looked at her!
I've had enough of this job, I want to make people happy I really do, but when I have snide comments etc off my BOSS! and when I apologised the 5th time today she said "oh dw you gave us ample notice...."
SO WHY BE SUCH A COW TOWARD ME THEN!!!!!?????
I seriously think I'm losing it, I just don't know what to do anymore :'(
I really can't see myself going in tomorrow I really can't...I don;t know what to do...can someone please advice me with what to do? I cna't speak to my partner as he's out till midnight tonight at work, and I won't be able to talk to him seeing as I've got to go to bed at 9pm tonight if I'm to get up at 5am to catch the first bus there and then go through the day by wiping human excrement all day!
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Right, most of you will have noticed I posted a topic saying I'd started a new job!
The job is working in a residential home, a caare worker, helping people with dementia and general old age etc. So far this week I've been working from 7am till 3pm, and in that time, tea break is 5 min's and lunch is 10 min's.
Other han that time we're not allowed to sit down and rest our feet. So naturally my feet are usually aching by the end of the day. Last night I got back from work and I was in agony. I had 3 foot massages off my partner, 2 foot soakes, some deep heat rub rubbed into my feet, nothing's helped, and it's resulted in me having to take a day off today,I feel awful!
I really want this job but having a day off within the first week of starting. I know I've upset my boss, and I keep thinking I've upset my partner, even though he says I havn't! I got in touch with the local doctors and they've recommended I take pain killers and it should ease off. I know I havn't been sacked (yet) and I'll be going in tomorrow, but I'm scared I'm wussing out on everything.
I feel awful I really do, I want to make people happy and I really want this job, but I couldn't walk this morning full stop, doing my teeth was agony!
Has anyone else ever gone through something like this? were you yelled at by your boss?
Sorry for the rant but I'm feeling so down in the dumps and miserable and I have no one but all you brill' people here to talk to me. | |
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I may need some advice or not I'm not sure, everything in my life is so so messed up at the moment and I can't get anything right. I can't think straight anymore and it's driving me crazy.
I've moved house with my partner and we're now living in our own house with Pete's mate Ozzy and soon Ozzy's partner Ashliegh...we're paying rent to Ozzy's parents, it's £126 summat a month.
Ozzy and Ashleigh represent youth Scotland athletics with their running and get paid, plus Ozzy's parent;s are paying his rent. Pete and I are in a tricky situation though. I am unemployed, I have not been able to find a job, and believe me...I've tried...I've lost count of the amount of interviews that have resulted in an never ending silence on their behalf.
Pete sort of has a job...he rings up and decides his shifts...though due to not having a land line it's tricky getting in touch with folk. we need to use our mobiles which also cost money for credit!
i just don't know what to do anymore, i'm trying to please everyone by going for a good job, but I keep setting goals that are far too high...and as you can guess no one's getting in touch! But I'm finidng it hard to get goals that are low! My only skills are cleaning,art and bar work...2 of which I want to move away from. I was hoping to use my artistic skills but it's not gotten me anywhere!
I've come down with a bloody head cold, can't breath out my nose and I keep getting light headed and at times it's hard to stay focused/concious, I've lost loads of sleep due to it and it's really knackered my mode of thought.
I'm terrified that I'm going to lose everything through my stupidity...you may all have a go, saying well you did ask for it..I know I did, I just don't know how to sort it!I want things to work out right but it#s so so hard!
What can I do...lathargy is sinking in now...*i hate this cold* it's really f**king my head up and bringing me down! Maybe there is no space for a mere idiot like me in this world?!I don't know...but it's looking that way for me...
Current Music: daft punk - technologic
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not that anyone cares, I'm just feeling crap atm, I've just had someone to tell me to get pissed and pretty much keep my nose out of other people's f**king business! and a whole load of other things are just getting on top of me and I'm findng it hard to cope
I only want to help others and I'm getting language and snide commentss thrown back at me, I can't do right for wrong...
So I'm gonna shut up now seeing as people don't really wanna know me or talknicely to me...
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I know I shouldn't be, my partner, Pete has gone out on an all nighter. For halloween, I'm not annoyed with him for this, I'm more annoyed with me, I have trouble getting to sleep without him, and so in this case it could well be that I spend my own all nighter being bored and feeling lonely because I'm not with him
But hey, I know I shouldn't giggle, but I get my own back on him in an indirect way - he has a 9:15am lecture tomorrow, mwa hahahahahha and he dosn't get back till 7pm...
I shouldn't giggle but hey. I'm usually the one celerbrating halloween, he couldn't give two hoots normaly! And now he's dressing up as a pirate!  going to all nighters and not inviting me along
hey ho eh? I don't think I@d be the best of company to bring along, I find it hard to socialise due to having been bullied in the past and so I'd be very quiet, plus I don't drink, and nowadays it's all "what;s the point in going out if you're not going to get wasted!"
*sigh*
such as life eh? I'ma gonna make some toast
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I've officialy decided that last night was the worst night I've EVER had in my entire life! No Joke!
Current Music: four to the floor-Starsailor
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