So, I love my dad and my family, but there are days I wish I could divorce them or maybe just file for separation.
Sometimes my dad does not think about what he says, and yesterday was one of those days. I thought I was over the hurt he made me feel, but today I realize I am not. I thought and I know that, thank God, I've done good for myself and my daugther and that everything was forgiven and forgotten, but I guess my dad has a long memory.

It has all started because my sister (a few years younger) is seeing this guy; my sister still lives at home, but since seeing this guy is coming home to sleep less and less. We are latin and of course this is a big NO for my dad; but the good old double standard is that the biggest deal about this is because she is a woman. It might be a problem if it was my brother, but not such a big problem because he is a guy.

As close as I can recall my dad's conversation yesterday, he has talk to my sister and has already showed her the biggest examples on what NOT to do, a relative of ours and ME (my daughter's dad was separated when I got involved with him; and my sister is seeing this guy that got separated a few months ago). I've learned to keep things peacefully, and just said "dad, what do you want me to do, she is an adult and it's her life", I guess that was not the "right" answer.
I did not show him how his words hurt me, heck I guess I was in shock, he said other things such as neither of his daughters can marry properly, and something along the lines that we failed him. I cannot remember his exact words, but that was the gist of it. I texted my sis and said "thanks sis, dad just called me"; she called right away and I can of made light of things, but she got furious that he would be calling me and on top of that saying those things to me.

Also, we got compared to my brother, who is getting his master in the next few semesters (left unsaid, is making him proud) and we cannot even get a AA. He is hurt and in turn hurting us, and I'm an innocent bystander!!!!!

Wow, I didn't realize how much I needed to put this in writing; I'm lucky my boyfriend is very supportive, but sometimes I don't want to burden him too much about how hurt I am. I haven't told my step-mom either, she would also be very hurt that he is saying those things to me. I think she hears plenty and I better not let her know, I know she doesn't approve about my dad comparing my brother to us.

Wow, I think I'm empty now .....