The other night I went camping with my dad and my brother, we had a good time, and then it came time to sleap. So, like any other crazy teanager, I read the book I had brought with me. And let me just say this right now, Orson Scott Card is one of the best authers living today in my humble opinion. Anyway, I was reading this and a question in it stuck out to me, "Who is she?" In the context it was given it was a question as to who it was that the main character was thinking about all the time. But to me it reminded me of all the stuff that I'v been going thrugh this past summer. And so I lay there and started asking myself all the questions I could ever wonder about "who is she?" who is that one girl for me...


Who is she? When will I meet her? Have I already met her? Will I know shes the one? Will she know I'm the one? Will she be nice, or will she be overbaring? What will her favoret color be? Will she love me no matter what? Will I love her no matter what? Will our love be so strong that no powers of Heven Earth or Hell will ever be able to tare us apart? If I die before her, will she remarrie? If she dies before me, will I remarrie? Or will we fallow eachother close behind the other, like the Hinckley's? How manny kids will we have? Will she want them right away, or will she want to wait a little while? Will she like my since of humor? Will we go out into the wild for fun, or stay at home and cudle on the couch? Will other people see us and thing, "wow thay realy are a perfict mach"? Will our children think of us as always fighting, or always working as a team? Will our familys get along? Will we get along with eachothers familys? Where will the wedding be? how many people will we invite? will she let me help plan it? what will the cake look like? Now for some of the much more shallow ones... Tall or short? fat or skinny? What color will her eyes be? What color will her hair be? Will she ware glasses? Will she be a vergin? If not, how many other people will she have been with? Will she like it soft or rough? Will I be able to satisfiy her? And now for some far less desterbing ones... but still shalow in my oppinion.... When will we first kiss? What kind of kiss will it be? Will eather of us be any good at it? Will she think I'm ugly? Do girls even care about that? what will our first date be like? Now some more less shallow one... How will I propose? Where will I propose? Will eather of us cry? What will the ring look like? Will she like it? Will we be a lot alike? Or will we be compleat opposits? How many dates will we go on before we get married? Will we dicide to only date eachother and no one else? Or will it just be "I'm engaged" and then we will be going steady? Will she be good with kids? Will she want to work? Will we laugh togather, cry togather, and truely be one flesh? Will we be close to the same age? Or will we be far apert in the age catigory? Will she be older or younger than me? Were will we live? Will I be able to afford a house she likes?

Thies where the questions floting through my head the other night. I figured, mabe if I wrote them down, I might be able to visualize them better. But also I thought mabe it might help someone out there in the big old world. Oh and by the way, I would realy aprisiat responses to this, please just tell me what you think, if you dont have an opinion, say so, but say somthing. I'll start to feal wierd if nobody comments on it. You have seen into a part of my mind, I hope it didnt scare any of you, or make any of you think less of me.