fuzzy_hand_cuffs said:
Okay, I am talking to my bestfriend...We were discussing the post I made earlier about how I am in love with him. And for a couple reasons he doesnt believe me on alot of things I say. I understand that...So here I am, trying to prove to him that im 100% real. He means more to me than alot of things do.
HERE IS THE TRUTH...
-Im not a mean person in real life
-Im too nice, I usually get run over
-Im not that much racist
-I sincerely love Bait more than my husband
-My husband doesnt have one oz of good in him at all
-I just try to blind myself and make myself THINK I love my husband
-I really suck at halo3
-The swinger life bothers me
-Im considering divorce
-I WANNA MAKE LOVE WITH MY BESTFRIEND
-Im not a liar, I just sugar coat things
-I have been ABUSIVE relationships as long as I can remember
-I regret having kids
-I never graduated
-Im never happy unless im chatting, txting, or on phone with Bait
-Im weak
-I cry everyday
-I love to argue cause im real quiet in the real world and I get away with things on the internet
-I never got to spend time with my dad
-I am crying right now cause I realize how pathetic my life is
-It hurts to see bad comments about my life on here. But this site is too addicting for me to leave it.
THERE YOU GO. Make fun of me all you want
I just wanted to prove to him he can trust me.
How long have you been married? Why are you still married? The fact you want someone (Bait) to trust you when in fact you are married and pursuing another relationship may dampen his trust.
I'm sorry you didn't get to spend any time with your Dad... that's got to hurt. Your soul needs to evolve with that factor missing in it's path. I never got to raise any of my children so I kind of know what you are going through. I've gained compassion for little people because of this. Young kids gravitate towards me because they sense I will treat them like people and communicate with them on their level.
Break it off with your husband if he's abusing you. No matter what happens Fuzzy, love yourself. That's THE most rewarding love you'll ever experience because you know for sure it's true and genuine.
Good luck,
J.R.