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 May 07, 2008 @ 09:03:55 | #53 | knowledgeispower
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Join Date: May 2008 | Well, I do have many voices, see things others don't, have uncontrollable muscle spasms, diminished emotions and trances. To be honest, I hate it. I'm going in a few days to get properly diagnosed but I can tell you, it's not fun. I go back and forth as this has been on-going for years. It likely is a form of schizophrenia. Hearing arguements where you're sometimes not involved, being told what to do, having others comment on your actions or other people's actions and most commonly, having numerous voices yell and insult you... it's not fun.
It's not like an over-active imagination as for me, I cant always control when I go back and forth. Usually in anger or stress but also when I'm relaxed, bored, tired, etc... .
And to be honest, when you tell close friends of it, some tend to leave as people don't take it very well. You're seen as being mentally unstable and when you go into trances, you have no clue of anything and when you come to, it's usually in a completely different place, sometimes others are injured or they stay further from you.
It is something I'd love to have taken away. |   | |
| May 08, 2008 @ 07:41:30 | #55 | iwannano
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Join Date: Mar 2008 | knowledgeispower said:
Well, I do have many voices, see things others don't, have uncontrollable muscle spasms, diminished emotions and trances. To be honest, I hate it. I'm going in a few days to get properly diagnosed but I can tell you, it's not fun. I go back and forth as this has been on-going for years. It likely is a form of schizophrenia. Hearing arguements where you're sometimes not involved, being told what to do, having others comment on your actions or other people's actions and most commonly, having numerous voices yell and insult you... it's not fun.
It's not like an over-active imagination as for me, I cant always control when I go back and forth. Usually in anger or stress but also when I'm relaxed, bored, tired, etc... .
And to be honest, when you tell close friends of it, some tend to leave as people don't take it very well. You're seen as being mentally unstable and when you go into trances, you have no clue of anything and when you come to, it's usually in a completely different place, sometimes others are injured or they stay further from you.
It is something I'd love to have taken away.
It is hard for someone that has nor lived thier life dealing with whst you have described here with your post and may not understand exactltly how you feel but I do understand thats its not something that can be taken lightly or just ignored and hope 'it goes away, I can see where it would be very hard to have to tell close friends and watch some of them leave with a look of 'fear or whatever on
thier face thier face . I hope the ones that don't leave will be a comfort in some way to you while going thur with being properly diagnosed and finding the right mix of meds. This is not my thread and me and another poster got way off topic and went pretty silly for a whilre here ,, I want to say I am glad you posted here so maybe when people read the title and then come to your post it will be helpful to them to understand it is not something anyone living with it would 'wish' to have in any form . I hope your treatment go smooth and helps .
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