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19/M/scarborough, United Kingdom Join Date: Oct 2009 |
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| damn you mother!!!!. every time i end up doing something good in my life you always have to criticize me for it. i get an awesome feeling of optimism and before i can even embrace it you've snatched it away from under my nose. i'm not a selfish guy but all i want is for you and dad to ge along but it's not dad whose the enemy and it's not ou whose the enemy but your the one stopping this family from running on its own cause. well you want me to grow up to be a man but you dont tell me how to. this is why im making the choice to want to see my father after 9 years and build a real relationship up with him, every son needs a father. you've had me for 9 years and hes had a mere 1-2. you just want to take everything away from him, correction you have taken everything away form him, one of his sons, his name, and a love that is going to take a while to build up on. i think it's going to backfire on you mum because im going to have to say good bye for a very long time, my dad is the way forward and you just seem to keep me from being anything cos you always say i'm not. this should be the hardest decision in my life but it's actually one of the most easiest ones i 'e taken into account. goodbye mum and i will see you in the near future when I've met and experienced my ambitions, you won't let you take me down anymore. | |
 blacksun
General 390 points | sorry, last sentence is meant to be. i wont let you take me down anymore.  |
 abzenze
Über-Meister 1868 points | good luck on your new path..
u should forgive ur mother as u cant blame em for caring.. i am sure she did the best she could with the position she is in..
my mother is quite critical but thats her way of showing me to be more careful and to achieve the best i can.. they show love in weird ways ..
maybe there is a reason ur mum wanted u to stay a distance with ur dad
well all the best  |
 treebee
sexual deviant
Hey that's my bike+ 191331 points | | sounds like you need some space from your mother, but dont hate her, even if she does things wrong she is human after all with fears and jealousies to deal with. |
 blacksun
General 390 points | | i don't know it's like i will forgive her but it's just she should be a motivator. a bit of gratitude would be nice ive been out of work for 3 months and i got a job yesterday, i went to go tell her the good news and she full had a go at me for getting a job. she just loves to crumble my world where my dad appreciates the fact that im actually living. well, she may realize whats happening, my new path is a good saying for this. but its going to change everything, including my friends and my culture. but im still young and this could be the start of my life. |
 blacksun
General 390 points | | nad i know the reason why my mum wants me to stay away form my dad cos he tells the truth, the things hes told me is really shocking. it's like my mums lived a lie for years. im kinda disgusted that she is my mother to be honest,i still love her but i think she needs help but it makes me unhappy that im having to do this, i want to help her but for some reason deep inside i dont want to. i know i should cos im no better but it shouldn't be me being the f***ing role model. |
 treebee
sexual deviant
Hey that's my bike+ 191331 points | | One of the hardest things i had to deal with was coming to terms that my parents hadn't always told the truth or did the right thing. Now i am a parent i can understand better. But at the time i was angry at them for not being straight with me and not doing the things they preached to me. |
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